Just came back from tuiton. . . =D

Stupid I was taking the straight bus home which takes about 45mins? and I dozed off was extremly tired, then there goes I knocked on my head. -_-'" and that stupid guy infront of me was like laughing. basket. lols. I turned and gave him that "bu shuang" look lols. Today tuition was alrightes la. Nothing much =)

After school, stayed in class to wait for zijie to complete her food-order-list. We talked lo. After that went paya lebar and meet choon yan and guys, I bought my ingredients for tomorrow F&N execution. But didn't manage to find shrimp paste. Shall buy it tomorrow morning. =) Hopefully i can find it.

Sigh, Don't wanna think so much on it oready. let nature takes it course. I shall just wait and see, anyway I can't do anything also. it will work out when its meant to be. =X of course I wish to .. .. .. lols. nvm. If it doesn't then is just too bad, it just seems that I feel differently at different times. =(((

Tomorrow its children days'!!! lols.
It's also weiguo b'day. Happy b'day to him.lols.
Hope he and my sis last long. lols.=D


tatas* everyone.
tomorrow shall be a good day! teehee. lols

Back from tution!! lols. =D



Well today P.E went up to hall to play badminton with lots of people la. lols. My skills were really bad. =X lols. I think the number of times of me picking up shuttle-cocks and more than hitting on it. =X lols. But very fun la! But I will surly get my musle cramps of my legs and hands tomorrow, cause I played quite long lols.


Maths lesson, got scolded by mrs cheng. She was teaching the new topic of circle I supposed, but I don't understand not say a single thing but most of it. So went she goes explaining half-way I said"aiya I don't understand leii very hard." Then she asked which part of it, I did not understand i told her everything. Then she started shouting at me saying what its very irresponsible of me saying I don't know anything if I've been listening. Damn it and there goes my tears dropped down. I don't know why but I just cried. Stupid =X Maybe there have been alot of things bothering me lately. =( ? I don't know la. I'm not angry by what she said, in fact I think it was really my fault for anyhow saying I don't know anything but I really did not expect such a big reaction from her. =X


I can't stand it when people goes really noisy when I wanted to study and pay attenion.=X I'm not picking on anyone alrightes.

We're like strangers now. I don't understand we can like used to be so so so nice. Then now we are not even an hi-bye friends. I find it weird, but I didn't expect anything alrightes. His mommy fetched me home. =X weird.


So fucking pissed off with myself. I just don't get it why those fuckin' things that teachers taught us I can't fucking go into my brain. Damn it. Damn it. Should I say I felt stress? Nahh, cause nobody will believe me. -_-'" hahas.

Actually am so pissed of just now. But everything is alrightes le. =D But I still have to say I can't stand people that show-off infront of me. Please get lost! if you're one. x)


Nothing much after school, just went back myself. Nothing much happen oready. I slept and slept. so shuang lols.

Alrightes shall stop here. Can someone please kindly force me to study? I'm so slacking this few days. =(((
tatas to everyone*
I'm waiting till that day eventually comes, I hope something will work out. =D
Goodnites*


iLOVEyou.* =D

I'm back! =))


Today, nothing much happen again. Morning assembly hahas so happy lols! caused I went up and took my reading materials. lols. and then and then . . . lols!*zipping of mouth* =X =D


Alrightes, today mrs yong told us about blog things again saying that if we, students were to wrote any defamatory (meaning untrue) things in our blog about teachers without even mentioning their names, but they know excatly about what had happen, they teachers actually have the right to sue us.

I don't care who is going to read what I wrote or rather I typed oready, she said we should not mention things out so publicly, we could simply mention it to just ONE! of our trustable friends we will thus feel better. yahh, we should be responsible for everything we have written. But hey, school is oready so stiff oready, I can't imagine principals threatening us to close down our blogs or whatsoever.

NOTICE!!! : thats only what I IMAGINE! ok. lols.


I thought we should also have our own ways to "chu qi"? I thought we have the right? Alrightes la, I shall not talk much about it later kena sue lols. So now the issue is that we shouldnt anyhow write things on our blog. bla bla bla. Can we imagine having our own space and own diary and we must care what others think, we must know what we must not write. Damn it! I know again! we should not write defamatory things about others. sigh, I don't know what to write. If I continue writing I will only contridict myself (dont know how to spell la.) lols. *rolling eyes*


Sigh, felt so left out today, should I name out? better not la. Just wanna say you and him are getting closer even in class, even in group work. I'm such an extra. maybe I used to be like that. Shall I say it was my retribution? I don't know la. Do you know Im really so left outt. whatever. *shrugs*


I suppose thats the reason for getting so pek chek today. =X



Went to book chalet with darren clifford and zihui. Manage to booked on the 3rd 4th 5th and 6th of december I suppose lols. Then from 4.30 waited till 5 for the shuttle bus, sit there and talk nothing much also. lols. Then took bus 3 with clifford.


Then yahh, finally am back home.
Tired. I don't know to say la. *sleepy eyes*
buhh byes to everyone. =D


iMISSyou* =D

Hahas I slept for around 2hours or 2hours plus? I suppose. lols. Sleeping is just so nice can! lols. Poor someone have to wake me up for so long lols. By msg-ing and calling but to no avail. lols. And then I finally woke up myself. lols. But thanks! anyway lols.



Today! went school with cheryl!!Nothing much happened, Only that I actually manage to keep awake in maths lesson. lols. I slept at 2a.m the night before okayes! So is not easy to keep awake hor. lols. P.O.A lesson I manage to get what ms tan is trying to say though. Can see she's totally fed up, she's busy keeping the class quiet but still there were some classmates of mine continue to be so freaking noisy. Alrightes I can't say Im totally quiet but at least do keep quiet or at least lower down the volume when she's shouting right? lols.



The counting down of E.O.Y makes me scare! Is only 9 more days to end-of-year.
=( Yet there are still many other things bothering me. =( Oh ya! PLEASE. If you happen to pass here, please don't ever tiao me when I'm not noticing you, please look right infront into my eyes and tiao me. LOSER! lols. Dont freaking pissed me off please. *rolling of eyes*



Oh my, someone actually walked pass my class, and I was just too engross with my chinese test-paper till I didn't look. =XOoops. Ooops. Ooops. =xXx. I love recess. =D lols. Today chinese was quite hard though. Alot of chim chim words. lols.



I've just found out that I actually mistaken somethings. =))
That stupid chemical still stays on my hair. stinks stinks stinks can. lols.



Alrightes shall stop here, have to complete my English assignments to prove mrs yong wrong. =X lols.


tatas~!
See everyone tomorrow! =D

Phew finally back home. =))



Sigh, feel so stressed up. Alot of things I actually dont understand.
Damn it. All I can say is only that I cant care what others said because those mouths belong to them. All i can do is only to act blur and ignore what they say. But did I get it wrong? am I just being sensitive? I don't know also. But I hope they dont point those fingers of them at me when they don't know anything. =X aiya, I dont know la. Whatever.



I changed? Whatever. I already don't cared. Alrightes, whatever you guys wanna say just say.



EOY is around the corner, and yet there is like alot of things I doesn't understand. Alot of things have changed too. I don't know how to explain la. my hair looks so flat now. The chemical and the mixture of my shampoo smell stinks like hell lols.



I have to study for my chinese test tomorrow!
Wish me luck please. lols. thanks. =)))
I will be sleeping late tonight. cause of cause of. . . lols =X



Im loving it. =D

Wahh, Finally Im back home!



Well, this morning, woke up very early and went to have breakfast wit my family, then met choon yan and tkd, went to choon yan mommy hair-salon, get my hair done. Whoa, I think its around a whole 3-4 hours? But of course choon yan didnt wait for me, they left first, anyway Im going out after that. lols.



Then err. . . yahh, went out.
Nothing much. teehee =X




Sleep early! everyone!
tatas =)))

Well, Just chatted with someone (that should'nt be mention) he asked me not to =X lols. Meaningful though, have anyone ever have this question in your mind before? Have anyone thought before whats the purpose of us living on Earth? Someone think that being happy on Earth is the mission that God gave us. But have you all ever thought before if your mission were to be happy? Then you would only complete your mission at times. As life is filled with ups and downs. You won't be happy all the time. So duhh. That's not the real mission, and we( including me ) doesnt know whats the meaning on being on Earth.



Was it for your family? your friends? your social lifes? your career? or studies? *rolling of eyes* Im thinking. I doubt anyone reads know too. That person also tell me some sentences that I find it quite meaningful. " what you burn is where you learnt" " what you reap is what you sow" duhh.


* * * * * **


Oh ya! there's one sentence that I like! teehee. *flipping of fingers*
When we love someone we should learn to be fair, and let our love ones decides their own partner. NICE one. lols. cheeriors to him. =))


hahas. I cant believe I actually blog three times a day lols.
I can't stand it when the weather gets really hot. I want it cold please. =) *flipping of hair in a bimbo manner* teeheehee*



Decision is something we have to made everyday, no matter is on what we want to eat? what we drink. and alot more. and to be indecisive is not anyone chose to be( including me, myself ) If choices are so easily made, we will only regret. And to regret is not we want again. Sigh, life is just so hard.



I just want to be happy and living with no worries is that too much? Why cant it come true. Sigh. We just want to be happy and yet is so hard.



yadaa yadddaa. lols. thats all. =)))
Sleep early everyone. =))
I'll pray for those who are infected by Dengue. Truest pray*
All of you shall recover fast! =)))

Oh my oh my . . .
I changed my song, cause someone complaint that my song sound awful =X lols.
NICE le horrr. lols.

Im bored!! and I mean freaking bored!! I'm stucked at home. I thought I would stay at hoem and study, but no I did not. I just slack around like nobody business lols. I woke up at 8plus saw three msges lols. reply and reply then went back to sleep again! lols. sleep till 10++.



Didnt do anything lying on my bed. yahh, he didnt messaged me the whole day. -_-'"
I dont know la. Is that what I want? Is that the way I chosen it to be? Is there a must to always end up like that? Was it my fault again? Must it always to be quarreling only?


***

Sigh, Im fucking confused. Can someone just tell me what to do la. yadaa yadaa whatever. Nevermind! Finally is sunday tomorrow! teehee. lols.



Nothing much happen also. Nothing much to talk about also. =))) take care because I cared. is just a friend. =(
Sigh.



tatas*

Alrightes everyone!! My com is okay and im back! lols.Blogging sometimes is so awful, you cant say out everything you wants to. People will start going around gossiping about you, If not people will come asking you what did you mean arh? Did you mean me? NO-NO! Please dont misunderstood me, Im not trying to say alot of people is looking into my blog. But those who blog will alos agreed to what I said hur? *nodding of head* AH HAR! see! everyone agreed with me lols.



Sorry la! Excuse my laming alrightes! lols. I shall just blog what I can type out, just in case i accidentally said something wrong, and people are not happy with me. x) I saw it saying youre guilty,I dont know whether you're referring to the thing that had just happened, but anyway you don't have to feel guilty about anything la. I don't wanna talk about these things oready.



Today! Woke up slightly later than usual, due to the insufficient amount of sleep the previous night. I slept from 11pm to 1am then I pop up myself suddenly remembering that I still have to complete my decision making lols. Someone was suppose to wake me up actually, but he did not! lols. nevermind. lols. =))


Nothing much happen as usual.=)) Just that we are having f&n test today. Its as if we;re having test almost everyday! Tues we have chemistry test! ( which I think Ive cocked up everything! ) whatever* lols. Wed we have P.O.A test ( the only test so far, that Ive got confiedence in it! ) *contented smile* =))) Then finally! thurs we din have any tests! =)) But we still have to complete our DM for F&N students. -_-'" and prepare for the test the following day. So stressed up, i dont think I have catch enough sleep the whole week. Must really sleep till very late morning tomorrow! lols.


After recess, my period cramps turn worst! Pain like hell, think that was the first time ever I felt so pain before.To the extend that I cant ta-han any longer. So I asked the relif teacher for permission to allow me to go to the canteen to get hot water. Thought it would make me feel better but to no avail. -_-'" Slept during maths lesson. =X Then suddenly heard lay koon shouted "shervonne!! mrs tay!" then I woke up, and there she was standing outside looking into our class, but luckily! she was not looking at me! lols. scared! lols. Headed for F&N lesson. My cramps continued, I find it hard to memorise those things ms tan have gone through before the test, end up going blank and forgetting everything when the test began. lols. During the test, my cramps gone worst still! I have to press hard on my stomach giving it pressure so that it will feel better, I almost wanted to cry out, its just too pain la. lols.



Went for earlier tuition, I find it ridiculous at something. nvm. shall not speak on it further just so lame, over small matters. =X Ooops. cramp and cramp none stop, sorry I have to say im disappointed, very. =X Now Im back home! omfg! I got 5 mosqitoe bites! Will I get dengue fever just like that? it really scares me can! lols. and Im enjoying chatting but is still crammping. =((( hees. l a l a l a s*



Im happy! and Im going to stay happy liddat. The way my smile is brought back again! =))) Study time!! LOLS!
tatas*
=))))

Whoa! Its been a long time since I last blogged. My com spoilt. -_-'". But guess it has chosen a good time to spoilt! lols. anyway exams are around the corner. But Ive been catching up of my vcds lately. lols. so its like no difference. lols. Didnt do much studying the whole week, and Im feeling guiity. =( But I promise Im going to stay at home this sat for studying!!! =)))



Alot of things have been happening the whole week or rather the whole period when Ive missed blogging. Alot between me and him. duh. But anyway everything is fine now. so yah! gotta concentrate more on studies oready!



Well!!! Today!! nothing much happen actually. But during P.E time was really funny. I was trying to pick roller-blading skills up but to no avail. -_-'" I cant even stand properly! how to roll?! lols. But I have to thanks alot alot of people for being there and held me up whenever Im about to for. Thanks for teaching me the correct way of rolling too! lols. but Im such a failure I dont know lols. Then theres this game that guys have to hop in one leg and catch the girls. I must say they are good la. In just 1min and 20sec they could caught all up. lols. Unlike us, though gievn the advantage of running in both legs to catch them, we still lost lols. But GIRLS ma. lols. But very very fun la. Trying to catch marvin but he ran so fast. -_-'". lols. Then end up having to complete our punishments. which is doing ten times of sit-ups. lols. so funny! me and zijie was like cheating all the way. I din even do a proper one. acted only lols. zijie was doign till 6 but I shouted so loudly " nine ten, yay! done" lols!



Well, slept during maths lesson again! I have to say I actually missed out alot on maths, and I need alot of help! Dozing off at geog lesson too! lols. Can feel that mrs yong keep looking at me. =X lols. Oh ya! my report book. quite alrightes though. well I get contented easily you see. =) Failed my maths folio which is sort of expected, cause I just chucked everything in and hand up. I failed my combine science! wtf. Sigh. giving up on chem oready, so difficult can! having those different formula that we have to get into our poor tiny brains lols. Physics worst. lols. so you can see my science is such a diaster!!!



Oh ya! During recess time so funny can! We went down only 5mins before the bell ring! When we bought the food the bell actuall rung, but we still continue eating, cause we saw mrs yong at the choir fund-rising corner. lols. we were praying hrad that she will take longer time to pack up all her things lols. Really funny! =))




Im still struggling on my F&N decision-making!! So sickening! have to finish 8 pages by tonight!!!



Thats all!! Wish me luck everyone! At least to complete half of my DM. *thanks* =))
Its oready friday tomorrow. and Im happy lols. sigh. maybe I shouldnt have misunderstood him. But Im glad he told me is not the way I think it is. =) Im really afraid, I dont dare to think of it also. Cos I dont want it to happen. But things cant be controlled at times. =(



Buhh-bye to everyone!
=)))*

Ooops. Time to blog!!! Din manage to have the time to blog yesterday. Was working. =) Yesterday sales was like. awww so bad. I dont evne have the mood to sell or advertise anything. =X But was quite fun though lols. So sick of my boss. Keep scolding fuck fuck fuck lols. =X Getting so polluted yucks! lols. Oh ya!! not forgetting to mention something!! lols. I asked choon yan to go to my bag to get a pen out to fill up the order forms and yet he took my eye-liner!! and yahh! he din even know and just continued writing until he says "eh how come the ink so powerful one arhh" LOLS!!! I was like laughing till I cant bring myself up. lols! Then we discussed with our boss for letting us stop working for the time being as our exams were around the corner. But he insist us on working at least one day. -_-'" ass. =X lols. I seriously detest people that doesnt want the ice-cream and slap the door right infront of my face. Damn those people. Show attidue! lols. Reached home, took shower eat and sleep. Im dead Im surly putting on weight for taking my dinner or rather supper so late at night and is before bed-time!! and I ate alot of ice-cream this few days. =XxX lols. So guilty!! I seriously seriously!!!!! HATE people to stare at me whne I did nothing to them! Felt like digging their freaking eyes out for giving me those irritating stares. Get so moody after that. sucks! Get it clear that I HATE those STARES alrightes!



Well today! umm. nothing much. Just finding myself sleeping almost every lesson. so guilty. During maths lesson I even slept till I cant wake up. =X Then went to the toilet washed my face. so blurr. lols. Oh my! Know what! zijie broke the class key in the lock! lols. First time witness that. lols. so funny! i cant stand those bitches that know what they did but find it was nothing. Stupid la. lols. Umm. nothing much. Not at home now. lols =))) Going tuition soon.



iMISSyou! =D muhahahahahas.

I just hope that god made us a way that we only live in happiness. But well, I know its not possible. Why must he create us in a manner that we will get angry, disappointed, sad or even frustrated or even even get annoyed easily? It cracks my brain thinking about this. lols. I dont like to see anyone getting upset frustrated or what, even its not yourself seeing others that way doesnt makes yourself feel good also. Perhaps Ive been thinking too much about this things that doesnt really concerns me matter? I dont know. But I do understand that he cant creates everything so perfectly if not no one will ever cherish those happy moments. Oh well, whatever. I dont care. =)



Teeheehee, lols. today nothing much happen, but I can see that zijie is getting better which is a very very good thing to me. =) During Mrs yong period, she told us about having those online-blog, and she claims that some of the teachers saw our blogs and will start telling her that "hey you know hor, so and so do this do that." and I felt as if shes looking at me. She said that she actually knows alot of things about us that when she said out it will frighten us. O.O lols. She said that whatever happen we wrote in our blog and wants to let everyone knows about. Hey! I thought thats the purpose of having a blog. haiya. I dont know.



Chinese lesson. Wu lao shi went for markings of paper in others school, thats what I heard la. Then this particular teeacher who doesnt teach chinese at all came to our class to relif us. So lame! she doesnt knows how to read this doesnt knows the meaning. Oh I mean I know she is trying her best to teach us, such a pity you know, cause she claims that she actually got an A1 for both her Os and As level for chinese. But its like 10years and thats the result of not reading chinese materials frequently. lols. I feel so sad for her, cause she is like feeling so bad that she cant even teaches us, she doesnt know the exact meaning. I think she freaks out too, knowing that her chinese actually down grade so much. But actually shes brave enough to stand infront of a class of about 40 pupils to teach a subject that she herself is unsure of. lols. NICE! lols.



I slept through alot of lesson today, lols. and I cant believe that I actually slept through the whole period of P.O.A lesson and ms tan din even bother to wake me up. =( lols. Am I that hopeless lols. Then after school somethings actually happened la. Some unhappy stuff, which I doesnt want to bring it up again since its solved. =) Im sorry for breaking my promise I WILL keep my promise next time! yah! Sorry to makes you feel so angry which you yourself doesnt want it especially when youre sick, Im not understanding enough =X Anyway must get well soon alrightes! And finally Im back home down here blogging taa hahahas. I love to be happy, oh well who doesnt right? lols.



For that someone:
headache go-away!
running nose go-away!
Sore throat go-away!
Coughing go-away!

Shoo! to all illness lols!
iMISSyou. =D

Can someone tell me is there a logic that when you gets
older you cant consume any ice-cream? lols. I doubt so.
This few days have been busy about work. so tiring.
Till I dont even have the time to blog.
Just came back from work only. =)
lols. that choon yan wanted to go solo so bobian
I ve to go solo also. In the end he din earn any money
instead I earn lols. but the trolley was really heavy can.
So scary. Oh ya not forgetting to mention about this guy!
I speak to him in english since hes a malay, then he replied
me in english saying " oh Im a malay I dont speak english"
I was like wtf? then what languge are you speaking now?
Some kind of alien language isit? lols. God damn him. lols =X
Going solo was quite okay though. Some kind people even asked me
to becareful when they dont even know me, lols. Oh ya! and theres
this two little boy sooooo!! cuttee can, when I was going down they
kept bidding goodbye to me! lols. They was like "jie jie!! byebye!!" lols
cutee hor? lols. Okayes la lols.



Today in school everything was normal? yahh. Its qiu yi birthday!! lols.
Though we din took her out for any celebrations but still wanna wish her
having the most happiest birthday today! lols.
Something happened la, not going to say about it any further, just wanna
tell zijie dont care about what have happen le, cause it cant be undone =))
Its hard very hard for you to accept but life still have to goes on. =))
Haiyo! and that someone is sick, hopes hes alrightes lalalas. teehee.
where got people having running nose and some cough can still take
chocolates one rite? lols. okayes la. lols.



Alrightes la, have to sleep le. Blog for my special someone lols.
Things that had happened today, makes me felt so guilty about myself.
sigh. hope things will just get better as each day pass. =))
Dont wanna see any of my friends to get sad!!



Sleepy!!!
miss you!! lols xD

In the process of masking. lols. duh.my face of course lols.
Wahh. tiring day, morning woke up at 9 then met zijie at aljunied.
In the mrt we saw yao zhong (suppose to be spelt that way?)lols.
Then went far-east. Bought present for Cy b'day. Nice okayes! lols.
Then walk around bought somethings too. Then we walked all the way from
far-east to cenilesure (dont noe how to spell la lols) wahh my foot hurts
alot can! the heels! lols. Then went to bugis. lols. for some reason la hahas.
Only me and zijie know. lols. =X




Then "accidentally" saw tkd and jason lo. lols. Then yahh went around to help tkd to search for Cy present. Oh my! another murdering case happened. yucks. i cant imagine how could the murder actually be so brave to cut the victim into pieces. So gross! That he or she might be a physco lols. Ooops! he might be looking at what Ive writen now! lols. Then went to play pool.lols. Then after that went for dinner lo. Then still so early then we went to airport lo. to the viewing-mall lols. yahh NICE very NICE hahas. not because of the view of cos. lols. =X
Well yahh. just so nice down there. =)) Then went home, Cy sent zijie home with tkd also. yahh and me and jason went home together lo. lols.
Just So nice today, dont ask me whyy. wahahahas* =)))
Yahh. and now at home. =))
Finally for once, I know that things are right. =))



Zijie, dont think too much le alrightes.
Ive learnt that thinking too much will only depressed yourself.
Well I know youre not that type so think positively alrightes!
Sometimes minding about so much things actually doesnt bring any happiness to us
but only saddness.



Memorable night tonight!=))
lols the mask so fun! can peel it off after it turns dry lols.
My last toe of each feet hurts like mad. Swollen too. =(((


I dont dare to look into the future, but at least I know im good now. =)))

Alrightes la, thinking that normal size font would be too small eh? lols
BIG enough now rite? lols.
My itchy fingers of mine command me to change my blog-skin again lols.



Was slacking at home the whole day.
Watching tv and eating, using the computer.lols.
I did not sleep horr! lols.
Till evening, helped my mommy to sweep the floor.
Its the whole house hor! My sweat is like dripping down oready.
!!: People who're getting a flat, please DO NOT choose those marble tiles
that have of different colours or what ever combination. JUST ONE colour will do
cause you will be having a hard time sweeping the floor, you cant even see
where are those rubbish you have swept. lols.
Awww. Im such a good girl rite? lols.
I do house chores eh! lols. muahhahaas x))
I even packed my room can. lols.
My wardrobe is in total diaster lols.



So lazy to get out of my house to the extend that I called for
mac'donalds delivery lols. Oh ya, thanks cheryl for giving me the number
I can even forget lols. =))
Oh ya people, please do tag again!! Ive change Cbox to chatterbox, cute-er
rite? lols. *nodding of heads* ah hurg! see! lols.



Hope kexian is alrightes hurr.
Dont get upset le alrightes! =))
I hate listening to jay's- jian dan ai! Makes me think back.
and tong hua also la. blah blah blah.

Ooops Im here to update my yesterday post!!
Im really tired yesterday and that "kind" sista of mine came and snatch the com from me.
She claims that her exam is over so I shall let her use.
Of course, shes so fortunate for having such a noble sista like me!!
muahahahhaas* so I let her use. x))



Morning woke up at 6 to bath and get ready for band.
Then reach there blow and blow, then have our lunch at around 12.
Then sectionals, oh my! they are really tiring.
Especially starting at the same place over and over again. =X
And asking us to blow the hard part one by one. well, needless to say.
Im of course yahh, lousy. x) But is really hurtful to hear the person saying NEXT.
When Im trying my best to blow, and get it right. lols.
But darren, I appreciate you always coming back, and most of the time youre the one always taking clarinet section. =)))



After band, went home.
Reach home, bath and change, then met jason for tution.
whoa! Indeed he really bought a POOH BEAR bedroom slippers for me.
yayness!! *cheers to him*!!
But guess hes down to some kind of physcosis-ness? lols.
He was like keep smiling keep laughing all the way from we took the bus and to MRT station.
Lame him. -_-'" I dont like it when we have nothing to talk about so silent. lols.
Reach tuition, yuling saw me and jason came together, giving me those huh-looking.lols
But I told her we merely meet to come together thats all. lols. She arh.lols.
Anyway she told me some tiny bit of secret.hahas congrates to her.=))



After tuiton, yah went back with jason.
We took bus 3, keep returning him the money but he insist me to keep it.
lols. I dont wan pushing money to eachother happen in the whole jounrney lols.
So I jolly well kept it. =)
Nothing much happen, but I guess we talked alot? lols.
The feeling is better compared. lols. Just say whatever I wan, not worrying I might said something wrong. lols.
Then he sent me home. oooops not elibrating(dont know how to spell la.) futher on what happen. lols. Sealing my mouth*
But dont mistood anything. lols.



Kexian, dont think too much oready, dont judge on anything when you dont know whether is true anot alrightes. yahh, and be strong well I know you are!! lols.
Having a holiday is like not having any. We have to go back to school almost everyday.
So what for la. We really need a break can. My throat hurts now!! due to what?
Insufficent of sleep lo. Boo. lols.



Alrightes, shall end here, I purposely wake up then come and post le horr!!
Specially for that someone whom asked me to update it yesterday night lo.
buhahahahhaas*
Shall update again tonight!! hahas.
=))))

Time to blog again!!!
Siannn. dont know what the hell Im thinking also la.
So frustrated, shouldnt feel and be that way at first!!
Fuck fuck fuck.



Ooops, sorry excuse my frustration. x)
Im now really sure I dont have those feelings for him.
But I only told him that I needed more time.
Damn it, how am I going to solve all this. it just sucks can!!
aawwww.
But a nice someone helped me to find a solution x)
That nice someone shall be named.
duh. Hes jason la. =))) Jing hao too.=)))
hahas.



Oh ya, jason dont sad liao eh. Though you claim you aint sad.
But how could this be possible. Just cheer up ya?
You see you've got such a nice friend here.
muahahahhaas* *innocent grins* x)



Slacking around the whole day lo.
So pissed off with my com, having the slow transfer rate. lols
Okayes la, nothing much oready.
Just so nice today, cause my mommy took leave.
she cooked for me, and the best is I dont have to even walk out of my house.
umm-hahahahas.



Oh ya!! Jason said Ive got pooh bearr slippers!!!
yayness!! thanks to you you you!!*appluse* lols.
Cant wait for tomorrow's tuition. *grins* lols



Cheryl pang: alrightes!!! you claim youre gotta write bad in your blog about me hor!! wahahahahas, Im not scared lols. Cause Im innocent so pure. lols. No one gotta believe you! *innocent grins*



Alrightes, stop here. I still have to complete my desicion-making. godd damn.
ended-*

Oh well, Oh well.
That awful incident which took place on 30 August.
Its already been 6days, but yet Im still thinking back.
Alrightes, Ive been fooling myself, I HATE myself for thinking back about the past.
God damn it, I could have just put it aside!!!



I cant stop myself from looking into my phone for new messages, from him*? perhaps?
Whatever I do makes me think of him* *rolling of eyes*!!!!
We spent alot of time together.
Tuitioning. bla and bla.
Oh my! can someone just simply give me a very tight slap and tells me not to think back!!!
and I mean ANYMORE!
I detest sad songs, the stupid tune of it makes me think back more.



Oh ya!! not forgetting to mention.
GUYS! dont ever ever promise girls things that youre unsure whether you can fullfill it.
He told me we wont have any break-ups.
Which of course I din take it seriously in the first place,
BUT! when youre so god in love with him you will think both of you really wont have any break-ups.
Dont ever ever sweet-talk also!!! well, it romantic.
But dont over do it.
damn it!! looking at couples walking on the streets makes me....
ya!! think back again!



Dont get irritated by my posts, I myself wanted so much to forget also!
But for those who have gone into a relationship before, ya you'll know that forgetting is VERY hard.
But its been 7months let me take some time ok!
Well youve chose the right time for a break-up cause its during the sep holidays. *contented smile*
So that I dont have to go under the stress of thick thick textbooks, and mostly those tests!
Maybe break-up is also a good choice, I can have my break and you too.
Please!! the feelings for him, go away please!!!



My daddy saw my cuts! shucks, but I told him I fell down on a carpark. lols.
Cutting myself have disfigured my hand! It'd better not left any scars if not I will find him* and stranggle him*! *evil laughs* But of cos Im just KIDDING!
Because it wasnt him that asked me to cut myself. duh.
Oh well I seriously wants to forget about him!!




Any of you with guy friends that looks like junyan* or weijian*?
Intro please.grins* kidding la.
Im saying to myself everyday
I dont love him. I dont love him. I dont love him.
lols. any people have any better good ways hur? It lucky that I dont write dairies!
If not I could have tear and burn it away.




Alrightes, I shall end here, I'll blog again tonight!

So obsess with changing my blog-skins. grins* hahas.
Nice hor? lols. New blog-skin new song, new life.
Have made up my mind oready, forget everything! start anew life! lols.



Morning woke up, then slack and slack watch tv. Saw xiaxue blog, cool lols.
Shes really frank, she just split out whatever she wants to say. lols.
Watched project super-star this morning, and found out actually wei lian is
pitiful also, but he claims that he doesnt wants anyone to vote for him just because
they pity them. Hes strong la, during this changelling competition, though with his
dis-ability he still went through the whole thing. Though I dont support him but still cheers* to him. lols.



Oh ya! did i mention I passed my social studies test? whoa! I din expect it okayes. Well at least I din break my promise with mdm ernie. lols.
I wanna be nurse next time when I grow up! lols.
You can feel that happiness when you fullfill something. nice! hahahas*



September holidays is coming!
But I guess I will be rotting at home again.
Alot of assignments waiting for me to complete.
Alot of filings too.
This coming holidays Im going to buck-up on my studies oready!
Oh ya! Jinghao thanks for calling and asking whether Im okay anot.



I dont like people that take things for granted.
Always thinking that the things will be there when you need it.
Oh well. . .
We should cherish everything we have now.
Not to pick on anyone* okayes.=))



ended-* =)))

Well I feel like blogging now. We chatted yesterday night, though I felt that having a friend relationship is better, we can talk much also, I mean as in everything. I also dont know why last time we cant. Somehow I still have the feelings that I cant put down everything and walk away, I thought Ive oready, but I realise I haven and is not as easy as I think.




Once I woke up, everytime I would think of him. Im not sure about myself also. Will I still be hoping for a patch, but I really dont wanna force anything. Things are always not the way we want it to be. Or should I just give-up? Well, I guess time will be the best healing medicine. Forcing will only add on to his stress.





But everytime I would ask myself is around 7months, and yet it just ended. Its really a pity. I dont wanna everyone to think is whoever faults in this relationship. I can tell you, I still cant put down.Im still missing everything. Well, but I still wanna tell you that whoever you might like in the future or even now, I wanna wish you all the best. Dont feel stress oready. Be strong and walk over all this obstacle. As it always happen in life. This will make you become more stronger. Avoiding any problems is also not a way to solve any problems. yah? =) I also wanna be more strong le. Dont compare yourself with anyone, everyone have their different good points. Dont compare. remember?




I would promise all my friends that yesterday will be the last time for me to cry. I hope no more people will ask me about my cuts, if not I will cry again. =( Dont have to worry you hurt me or what, in every relationship there will always be some hurt, if not how we gain something rite? At least Ive once know that we loved eachother deeply. =)



dont be sad oready! =)))
I wanna see your smiles.haas
The way you used to joke with all your friends.
ah hur? hahas.
burrhh byess.

boreed.

Ive finally make up my mind oready.=))) Haaarlo!! to everyone. Im feeling much much better oready. cheers for me but most importantly its because of friends that helped me alot to pull through this terrible time.


Yesterday night found out something I din really want to find out. I cant believe myself hearing that also. shant' say its about what but my close friends will know. =)) I was really damn frustrated knowin that. But I think I have calm down now, and I dont think I hate him oready. =))



This morning went school with cy. During physics lesson it was sort of a free period, so me yuling and zijie sat around talking and I dont know why I started crying again. Its just the memories la. keep flashing back me lo. sad really sad. Then go mad again later, keep singing in class with zhi qiang. lols. F&N ms tan scolded us, I think she have oready been tolerating us for the past few months, us being late for lessons not completing our coursework thingy.Then I think she saw my cuts, she pulled me aside and started giving me advices, and tell me that when its time to walk out of it, you should just walk out. and I cried again. -_-"' She asked me not to be so foolish again.Did I mention mrs yong also saw the cuts? She asked what happen but I just told her I fell down. what a stupid answer hur? -_-'".



Went for band, cried non-stop especially when I saw her*. Everyone was shocked. Joycelyn NG and xiang rong especially? Those memories of us just keep flashing back. I still remember i ever telling you that no matter even we broke uip or what, must come for my band concert in next years' time, I cried and cried non-stop. And the american elegy so sad the tune makes me wanna cry more. -_-'".




Went back with jing hao wen sheng and albert mingkai after band, as cheryl dad's fetching her back. sian. Oh ya! did I mention that wen sheng come to clarinet section? lols. He's quite guai lols. I taught him de hor! (some only la.) lols. Albert go horn's section and i heard hes doing well there, he took the instrument then knows how to play. *claps* for him. lols. and Jing hao joined the saxophone section. Hes so damn funny lo lols.



Went to popular, after reaching tampines, too early to go for tuition. Saw this book which I find it quite interesting and meaningful lei. Its called " Men are from Mars Women from Venus"? Something liddat? its a book about how to solve relationship problems and it also claims that after many people read it, it really solve their problems and they become more and more loving! lols. Interesting eh? lols. It claims that at first Men came from the Mars and saw Women in the mars, and Man go and find them and soon after they form a kind of very special love and they went to a new planet called Earth, Oops I forgot to mention that if they came from different planet they will have different character. They love, feel, appreciate everything in totally different ways. So when they came to earth its as if they have got brain-washed and they become having same characristic.and men will thinks that whenever a women is in love with him they should act in a way men expect them to act. Same goes for women. It also claims that Men always misunderstood what women says, which I think is quite true. aiming for that book but anyway Im not going to have any relation-ship problems anymore.




Now I wanna thanks all my friends that have helped me to pull through this terrible time. and sorry for telling you all that i want to be alone.

:

Zijie!! - thanks for helping me by hugging and trying to understands me all the time. =)) I love you the most!x)
Cheryl pang! - thanks for asking me to stay strong always.
Yuling- Thanks for asking me to forget the pass and walk out from everything!
Jasmine- thanks for standing at a position whereby you really understands that I needed to cry out.
Qiuyi- You were there to joke with me everytime!
Albert & kexian- for listening to my problems and giving my advices
Choon yan- for asking me not to be liddat, not to be sad.
tkd- for asking me not to do anything foolish.
Jinghao- thanks for asking me alot of time whether Im really okay during lessons.
Kahng- for doing stupid things to make me smile.
Nicholas- For listening to me and cheering me up
yee teng- for consoling and giving me the POOH bear tissue lols.
Priscilla- for asking me not to be so foolish again, and forget the past.
Xiang rong and joycelyn NG- lending me your shoulders and confiding me.
Wendy- thanks for asking me numerous of time whether Im really ok and whether I need to go home. =)
Ms tan- for telling me that after this week of holidays, she wanna see me fresh and lively again!
kok boon- you cheered me up alot the past few days.


whoa! lols. if i forget any one of you remind me ya? lols.


I dont wanna see you this way, suffering so much.
The greatest thign you can do in life is to learn how to love yourself.
So please do cheer up, after all this days Ive learnt that being sad is no use.
Ive also learnt alot of other things.
Everythings gotta be okay. dont be sad okayes.=))
Although Ive know what happen but still I think by hating a person is very xin ku.

well, this morning was waken up by my sista alarm clock. damn it. and here it goes I think about it again.
And here it goes, my tears dropped down again. I started crying again and it never stops this time. sad la. Looking back to the chatlogs and I cried even more. Dont wanna mention futher on. Just sad, thats all.


Just rot at home the whole day. whats more? Then I think my mood was better as time goes? yahh =))
Hope hes ok too.=))


Went for tuition, yuling told me somthing*. shall not say it out here. Am really heart-broken to heard that. never-mind. whao. tomorrow schooling again. sian. fuck weilian is in lo. lols. never-mind Im glad Im not very obsessed over super-star lols. wasted my vote lei. lols. never-mind. JJ rocks most can. He so cute so shuai!! lols.



Okayes la have to sleep.
Nites everyone*
Dont get upset over da superstar thingy. =))
If you support weilian congrates la. but dont be like nicholas liddat so mad lols.
If you support kelly dont be sad, anyway shes going to cut an album. =))
She did very well tonight. =) not to forget that xin hui became prettier too. lols.
Cheers to all contestant.WeiJIAN was so cute and shuai jun yan too lols.
buhahahahas`* Im not biased. =))

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