Friday, 30 December 2005

Finally back from sitting that bus for so so so long !!!

This morning went to whitesands to buy my body gel and those for wrapping books de . YAHH , I wrap books , don 't give me those na li ke neng FACE ok !? I know I never wrap my books in secondary life , hmmm , I guess neither did I during primary school years , mostly were wrap by my sis I guess . LOL .

Suddenly have the urge to wrap ma . HAHA .

Then reached home bathed and change , have to rush over the my main office . To return my uniform and take pay nor . Part-timers don 't need uniform so return nor .

Hmmm , so fast so fast new year eve is just tomorrow , looking back the entries I 've wrote through the year , I hope I have be more mature . and change from all the bad stuff .

Thinking back . hmmm , serveral happening things hur ?

From the time I took part in mjr idol , to get support from my friends . To being damn worried about my results . To the time , when I cried so hard about him , wanting the break-up . To the time going out to work . Knowing jasline and friends .

to the time , when I used to stand so hard about what I believe , being so naive to believe what others say easily . Well , alot alot of things happened .

And all the above mention shall be left behind .

Because it 's a NEW YEAR AHEAD . (becoming siao~ )

HAHA . Shall come out with an new year resolution SOON , but after my homework ! I haven touch one yet !! =(

I never ever complete all my december homework on time one !!! I shall try .

bye bye le !! go chiong homework liao .

Thursday, 29 December 2005

Back from outing with michelle and his bro , felt so weird calling her by name which I don 't usually . hah !

Met her at Plaza sing first , I was late , very late !! so paiseh to let them wait !!So we ate long john , afterwhich , we headed to arcade to waste our money LOL . His bro wanted to play those kind of QIAN BIAN game na , those kind got alot of gifts kind and you have to built the blocks to the very very high end and will get the gifts .

But of cause we did not manage to get any GIFTS na . That 's what I meant by wasting of money!! That kind of game very additive laa , once you play you can 't stop .

After which we proceeded to watch our movie , the chinese tall story , it 's actually SUN WU KONG naa , but in a more funny version , everything don 't goes according to teh real SUN WU KONG one , but quite funny .

That movie suppose to be SAD one , that michelle keep laughing at stupid things makes me laugh also laa ! haha !! Hmmm , that movie have a very meaningful moral , it says if you were to mind about the result of your relationship it won 't be ever lasting , we should not think or plan about what to happen next , we should just let nature takes it course .

Then we walked all the way from PS to taka nor , look for his bro bag . Went puma saw koon peng working there nor , wanted to buy bag from there , but none was nice or either big enough for me to put my BOOKS . hah !

In the end found a bag in taka nor , where it sells ripcurl thingys de , for his bro . Then went over to city-link to look for MY bag , I thought the SURF BABE would have it , but no laa . So went over to BUGIS , michelle also wants to look for bag but she can 't see any nice one in little match girl also laa .

So went to eat pasta-mania nor . Went over to seiyu to look for school shoes , but in the end found my school bag !!! those kind of hang-bag kind laa , bought it at royal sport nor , actual price was 65.90 but because there 's a sales going on so bought it at 50plus nahh , school shoes bought at DAMN cheap price laa .

Went over to bugis street to change michelle jeans , walked around lor , in the end don 't know why out of nowwhere saw THEM * so paiseh leii !!!!!! at first didn 't know HE * was there also until I saw jeric , then I was liek oh shit . Then turn away , I know I was rude but I don 't know why my first expression was like that .

I wanted so much to look and smile , but maybe I can 't laa , because I 'm super PAISEHH !

Righhtes , 2 more days to new year eve !!! I told zijie I will be going to sing k with her naa , don 't know she got forget not . =/ HAHA , she forget I will strangle her her her !!! hahahahha .

Tomorrow chiong homework le na .

bye bye !!! =D





Wednesday, 28 December 2005

Yayy , I 'm free today . finally finally finally haha . Loads of things to update about .


Yesterday went back to school to pass zijie her homework , so that she can hand up to mrs yong . Then stayed at school for quite some time , until I realise I can get my IC haha, so took it from general office nor .


Heard from what cy told me , I feel like slapping people oready , at first I 'm sad then I 'm angry already . I 'm always the one being decieved . WHY??!! It 's GU YI one isit ? I hate that , fucking hate that laaa . You don 't know how to do your things meh ? must ask her orhh . !@#$%^&*!


Then after that went to bugis with zijie to eat sake sushi hees !! I didn 't know service charge was like 10% until I see the reciept ! Damn it , I mean must it be 10% ? then next time must not take from outside must keep ordering from the waitress . LOL . ok laa . I 'm just kidding laa . HAHA .


Then went in to MISSHA nor . haha . I NEED to be SERVE hahahahahhaha . he asked he asked !!! LOL . alrightes , went to FANCL nor , saw this cleanser oil , it says that it can remove water proof mascara and even long lasting lipstick away easily leii . I 'm going to buy it le naa . haha .


Went to face shop as well , find they all nor . Then show zijie around haha . Thats all for yesterday nor .


The day before yesterday , hmmm , meet jasline early in the morning and went to perm my hair nor . hees . Now is okay laa , dry is dry laa , but it 's suppose to be like that de bahh . Everytime have to style then go out nor . Ma fan hurr . yahh . But I 'm waiting for my hair to turn long long long , then go reborn again . HAHA .


After perming jas went to her boyfren house oready na , I don 't even know how to go out of that place okay! , it 's in sengkang ! and the blocks of flat look almost the SAME , and the road is like dead one , no cabs not even bus also . Have to walk a distance before I get hired a cab nor .


Reach the LRT station and don 't even know where to go . Luckily I 'm on the phone with a person whom she lives there as well . HAHA . first time take LRT leii !!! haha , I keep saying sooo excited hahaha . So small de , no driver . hahahaha . Then reach senkang station . I didn't knwo I can take mrt from there as well , I walked one big round around campus point and see the station and walked in so happily , until I realise ehhh ! I 'm wasting my money laa , not teh same meh ?! come in and go out so happily LOL . so stupid laa me .


Then went to work at marina nor .


Thats all laa , hmmmm . bye bye nor .

Friday, 23 December 2005

Yayyy ! back from work le !!!


Walked passes MISSHA LOL . HAHAHAHAHAHAAH ~


Today work was okay nor , keep doing stocks laa , cause alot came ma . Dinner time go find jasline laa , but then she busy doing manicure laa so in the end have to BUY her dinner then I went back to the shop to have my dinner nor . pathetic .


Then went home with vickii nor , haha work with xiuyue soo funny laa . =))


Tomorrow is chirstmas eve le nor , nobody to celebrate is oready pathetic enough still have to work . LOL .


Okay nor , thats all for the DAY !!!


Tomorrow will be fucking pack in BUGIS how am I going to go for my lunch . =(( haha .


bye bye le nor . SEE YOU .


^^V

Thursday, 22 December 2005

Back from work nor . Today not bad laa .


JASLINE works at BUGIS also !! haha . vist her at edge ok !!?? people manicurist leii !! HAHA .
I can even have lunch with her !! haha so goody goody !! see we got yuan fen . heeeee .


Today was late for work =( First time haha . Because of missing my bus laa . whatever I NEVER chase after buses no matter its very very near , cause I WONT haha . Now now . . .


Have to advertise on one product the Aqua fresh thingy arhh from my shop laa , GOOD leii , My skin that time was like very very dry but after using it , it actually really gives moisture to my skin and my skin is much much better !! So buy that , that one is not nesscerary for dry skin laa , oily also can use nahh . =))


Someone I saw today makes me think back of the past we used to joked . SIGHHH , I have not forget , but it 's time for me to let go oready . bleahhh .


ok nor , stop here le laa . bye bye .


TAKE CARE !!!!!

Wednesday, 21 December 2005

YAYYY yayy ! back from work , EARLY today because its in BUGIS ma . HAHAHAHAHA


Bugis is good laa , nearer to my house ma , today was fine nor , weilynn sharol kexian and fangning came to look for me . haha . Stupid weilynn scare me from my back again ! She so disgusting laa ! haha .


There 's one customer today , whom I actually chatted with her for quite some time nor , at first she was finding some products that were oil-free but dont know why , it 's as if we have known eachother for ages . we TALKED ALOT ok !? we even talk about our life , things like that . HAHA . so nice !! HEES


Wahh Haven get my recosite leii , the 130 products , shall call office tomorrow morning laa .


This month recosite was still thinking of what to get nahh , should I get the CAPTIVATING CURVES procduct ? LOL . Can be slim and sexy ok ! HAHAHAHA . But also don 't know that one really works not . =X hmmm . see how see how . HEES*


Don 't know should I go for perming or rebornding leii , jasline confirm say DONT perm because her hair kena spoilt by PERM lol . But then I was like staying with my straight hair for don 't know how many years liao eh . So should I perm ??? But I 'm afraid it will make my hair fucking dry nor .


whatever I still have like 6 days for me to decide . I need COMMENTS so give me please !! HAHA


bye bye le nor people !!


miss me !!!

Tuesday, 20 December 2005

Yayy !! back for blogging !


Haha , ok ask me why I sound so excited ? haha , lame . I 'm transferred to BUGIS de face shop laa !! So happy can !! HAHA . it 's nearer to my house . hees !!


Anyway , whole day stayed at home nor , doing nothing , whole day with the com . haha .


So tomorrow will be starting work at bugis le nor . Must come find me arhh people !! haha . will be going to wisma first to get back my apron and stuff nor , anyway working half tomorrow ma . haha . YAYY !! I feel like jumping . don 't feel like stopping work liao . LOL .


Ok nor . that 's all for my day , my blog song nice hur ? HAHA .


It 's by alex fong and cookies de stephie . =D


bleahhh , bye bye le .

Monday, 19 December 2005

Hmmm , today nothing much nahh , go buy books with daddy nor .


and then came home with sis ...


Mommy ask me go reborning next mon lo . haha . so lame . Tomorrow off nor , but no where to go also . Hmmm , anyway will be working till 25 and stop and go back to work as a part-timer when school re-opens nor .


Reason if stopping work by 25 is that from 26 on have to chiong homework like mad . HAHA . I found out alot of things about you laa , whatever !~



Stop here liao nor .


bye bye le .

Sunday, 18 December 2005

Yayyness ! back from WORK !!!


Haiiyoo , want talk about work yet can 't just because of some REASONS , fucking good reasons . Tiring today nor . today work place there so dirty . =X


Customers laa ! This one too fed up laa , cannot don 't complain la . LOL .


After work went home with rose and april nor . So fucking damn funny can today !! HAHA . imagine me sweeping the floor half way can laugh till sitting on the floor !!?
Cause april was suppose to get the mask sheets to scan yet the SHOW CARDS because the mask is finished ! HAHAH .


Ok laa , might not think it 's funny , you must be there then you will know the situation is like DAMN DAMN funny laa .


Today on my train journey was sleeping through , because the night before was working mid-night sales . Then I didn 't know that one very old de ah gong and ah ma is right infront of me until I woke up !!


Which was like around bugis liao . I was so so so so SO fucking guilty can !! of not giving up my seats earlier , only until I woke up . I 'm not trying to act good here , just to express my guiltiness here !! WHATEVER ~


I don 't understand why people opposite of me or rather beside me don 't know how to give up their seats to them , it 's not as if by sitting down will keep their legs from breaking up into pieces . BAHH ~



I can 't describle the feelings and thoughts of seeing you . I kena stund , yet was like . NOO , I 'm not walking over to called him , how am I going to ? I 'm nobody to him oready . BAHH~
Someone give me happiness can ?


I once heard , one relationship does not need to last forever , because at least you know that guy once loved you deeply . BAHH~ bullshit , that sentence is only used to console those who is just been DUMP .


Rights laa , stop here le nor . YAY tomorrow OFF , must go buuy books and chiong homework liao !! eeee .


Miss me laa . hees !!!

Saturday, 17 December 2005

I need to sleep now , but I just can 't , maybe because it was THAT thing . whatever ~


I don 't think you would even bother to give me a damn laa , hor ? I just found out , somehow , you all did msg eachother , and that saddens me even more . No point turning back ? yes . I know . I 've told myself to walk over it .


But it just seems so hard so hard . Why is that so ? I still can 't let go . I still care , still feel . YAHH laa . I 'm JEALOUS laa . But do YOU care at all ? I just need to know . =((


I wanted to act as if I don 't care , but I don 't think I can . Why is it so ? I thought work can help me occupy my time so that I would not have that much time to think about it , but NO . I just can 't stand what she wrote to YOU .


I can still be mad , and jealous last time , but no use being it now . Cause you would not come and sweet talk me ANYMORE . =(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((


Anyway , work till midnight cause wisma having midnight sales . Very tired . Reach home only by 2plus and now it 's 3plus to 4 I 'm still awake . =(( Eileen last day today , 25th is my last day . will continue as part-timer when school re-opens .


I 'm so fucking sad now , just because of one fucking testimo*** . =XX



I want you back , back . so so so badly .

Friday, 16 December 2005

Yesterday , did not manage to explain much . Aiyaa , I think I 'm also not suppose to explain much though . It 's all about the company just doesn 't wants it to go public , and I was warned not to post anything about them up nor .


So today went to work as normal . During lunch break walked past breadtalk saw , "qi duo hua " if you all were to know about them , they are the taiwanese girl band laa . Was quite shock , but not interested la . HAHA .


Wistma air-con broke down . HOT leii . tomorrow working till mid-night norr .


Sighh , I still misses you alot . I really do . But no one to complain to . =((


I just don 't understand why people can be so fake at times , I can 't stand them le . WHATEVER .


Shall stop here , since can 't blog much . =X

Thursday, 15 December 2005

OKAY ! For the shitty reason that I 've change my URL is DUE To SOME COMPANY POLICY .


They said its not ok to reveal so many things , shall keep my mouth shut for the time being .


Right so today nothing much happen . BLOG ended .


HAHAHAHAHA . SO LAME . but really nothing to blog if I cant say anything about work . PLEASE RELINK ME at this URL .


Thanks FOLKS !


See you le .


KE YI ZAI AI WO YI CI MA ?

Wednesday, 14 December 2005

Righhtes back for a lil blogging before going to work .


Woke up too early laa , so while waiting time to pass , shall just blog bahh . lol .


Hmm . I 've to say again , I don 't need people to pity me ehh , by going around say eh that HIM is bad and all those stuff . I already said , it 's no one fault . okay ? =))


Not I want to act good here laa . But I also don 't want HIM to feel the pressure laa . WHATEVER !


Not to let go is useless also . It 's like a button from your shirt is dropping out , you defintely have to cut it away , if not it will just hang around , want drop but cannot drop . BUT is useless , not cutting it away , because the strings are all coming out .


RIGHT ?! haha . I so drama . So it 's the same meaning , when there is no more feelings , what for force hor ? It won 't be a good ending also .


YAY ! bian mature liao . know how to think liao . BLEAHHH .


Everyone told me the same thing , break is a sad thing yi ding hui cry de , but as time pass by any wounds that is hurt deeply also will recover de laa .


But when I wake up in the morning , I still tend to look into my phone for MSGES , but there will always be none nor .


But sad , doesn 't mean people MUST give way to me in everything laa , LIFE still have to goes on . I 've to know this also laa .


Righhtes shall stop here le . BYE BYE people .


Going to meet jasline , then go work nor . Got time come find me in wistma laa OK ?! HAHA .bleahhhh .

Tuesday, 13 December 2005




Yay ! Time for some picture picture !!




SEE ! Jas cheek bone so high laa !!



EEE act idiot ! so UGLY !



EEE !! I act zilian LOL . machiam take MV LOL .


YAY ! mirror reflection !! BLEAHHH .

Yayyy !! Today went out with JASY norr . HAHA .


Feel better finally laa , I meet her at tanah merah first lorr , as usual she 's late by 10mins laa . Then we headed to bugis , ate MOS burger , then walked around . Went to FACEshop and look for our colleague there norr .


Then we take NEO-print !! hehs hehs , Shall post it up the next time bahh . So fun and we even use jas de HP to take inside the neoprint thing , we even act stupid and post zilian post . LOL .


Hmm , then went over to Bugis V lor , find weilynn disturb her then went off and look around , them mama called and asked me to wait for her there to buy the what bag laa , then me and jas walk alot of rounds to wait for her to come norr .


She reach liao , then go look for the bags nor . mama siao one buy 6 bags OKAY ! But I also got so nevermind laa . HAHA . She so auntie take so many things laa , bleahhh . then after that accompany her laa , buy herbal tea , want torture my throat again . LOL . But I say I dont want . HAHA . Then me and jas went off to city link then to marina square norr .


Then went to Face shop again , look for masami . haha . Then she say don 't have time to go out buy things eat , and she 's hungry so I bought things for her to eat lorr . Then by that time 8plus liao laa , then we went off to PS haha . Yahh go face shop AGAIN .


Tour to face shop day maa . LOL . Then go food court eat first nor . Then jiu go find kelly they all . Then they say need chirstmas decoration so me and jas help with it . Then go carrefour find things norr . EEE my hellokitty phone chain dropped out there . but then jas help me mend it backk . hehs hehs .


Then we went off first nor . Cause jas bought newspaper for her mama . Then go home lor .


Reach home by 11plus lorr . hao le laa . stop here . TOMORROW still got work . SIANN . WISTMA again . whatever .


Bye bye lorr .

Hmm , suddenly have the urge to blog now .


Hmm , first of all I shall say thanks to all people out there , no matter you 're somebody or not . Thanks for tagging . You all always say something that makes sense and make me somehow so touch . =((


Yahh , Jasline is right , things can 't be forgotten , once it has happen it will be in my heart forever , no matter to where I go . But when things are not mend to be we can only try to let go and not keep looking back , in LIFE , we don 't always get the chance to choose what we want . Yet we can only decide when we want to let it go .


It all just takes time laa . I thought I was strong enough to avoid tears , but I was wrong again . I woke up and weep like a fool on my bed . I thought I was really numb already , but NO , I still feel the unbearable to be apart feeling . WHY ?


Hope time can really heal the wound . I wonder if he 's sad at all ? I doubt so . =X I must be a ugly burden to him . =((


I wanted to think positively so so so much . But ? Do I have a choice ?


Maybe , we really don 't have the CHEMISTRY ? Maybe at the first place , it was all just puppy love ?


11 of DECEMBER I will hate this DATE like HELL .


Whatever !


Meaning of break ? is it that he don 't wanna care anymore , and it tired of loving already ? Actually all I want from a guy is yet to be simple , but yet hard for them . WHY ? I don 't know ask them la .


They just need to BRING ME HAPPINESS and UNDERSTAND ME . That 's very simple , I think most girls want this too bahh . Jasline is right , as you grow older you will think that looks is not very important , as long as he treats you right . HOR ?


Can I .. Can I ? ... JUST CRY ?


Anyway , happy birthday to JINGHAO !! hees .
Good luck to yuyang performances today also .

Monday, 12 December 2005

Today , went out with zijie lorr . Went to her ah ma house to wait for her lorr , then went to far east and decided that , there 's nothing much to shop so went over to bugis , and we decided to catch a movie !!


Wahh it 's like first time in my life zijie will watch a movie with me , cause she always claims that it 's a waste of time . HAHA . So we bought the tickets lorr , she laa say what want watch perhaps love , am not even interested in it at ALL lorr . Cause it was quite a art art type movie laa . and yes , it turns out to be quite boring but meaningful though .


Before catching movie we went over to mos burger to chit-chat lorr . Talked alot alot alot ! My tears were falling out , thinking about him . But I manage to act to look out of the window and stopped it . =) I don 't want to cry infront of her , I don 't want to appear weak to anyone oready , if I need to weep I will just do it alone . WHATEVER .


My sis also claims , eh why you like nothing one arh ? Then I was like what you want me to do , cry and weep like mad and get nothing out of it hurr ? BAICHI !!


That movie is meaningful as in some songs sang , it 's not a very happy ending , thus it makes me not feel no way better , and I cried , I cried not because of the movie laa . Just the the .. yahh , memories that flashed back make me . sigh . WHATEVER laa .


Saw sharol and weilynn at bugis after movie lorr . haha . Went home alone norr .


Are all relationship mend to be like that ? Or is it just that I 'm the only failure . I want to act as if I don 't care but I can 't . I really tried hard , very hard , but to no avail . I failed .


Yahh , people in relationship , must try your real best to understand eachother , showing attidues doesn 't help at the least bit . Just open your mouth and say out what you 're not happy with eachother and I 'm sure very sure , that your relationship will be able to last .


Just solve the problems and move on , why is that so hard ? HUR ?! why ? Acting like a clown is not fun at all !


I 'm the one to be blame at all my faults .


I needed hugs so much , so much that I cry for it at nights .


BAHH .

Sunday, 11 December 2005

HE broke up with me ................................................

how should I even start this entry , How come this kind of thing always come when I did not get any prepare before that ? how come ? Am I such a bad GIRLFREN in the sense that all guys wants to dump me and let me sound like a fool ?


How can one lost feeling so easily ? Why can 't I ? I 'd hope I can ! The moment I recieved the msg , my heart had nearly stopped beating and feelings of whole world ants came to bite onto my rotten heart . Cause I felt the heartache the pain , and is not describle-ble .


I can still remember , days when I get my off days , and started to think I would go out with him , am my thoughts always be so stupid and naive ? I thought I could stayed my tears and not let it come out , but when jasline called I just could 'nt help it .


My mommy came back and started to nag and nag , when I 'm oready not feeling very ok , still must kena nagg ? I was like wtf ?


Actually I never ever think of this would happen , yes he 's right no point continuing when it 's not meant to be right ? So what if I still love him till want die liao ? So what ? I don 't need anyone to pity me , it 's my fault for falling in what .


I feel like I feel like weeping like nobody business !!! But I don 't want , I don 't want to try any stuff that hurt me again , I know it 's painful and I know that will only left ugly scars on my hand .


What 's the difference of breaking up then say alot of good things ? It 's still very saddening , it 's not as if I will feel better so you don 't have to say I 'm good . I know I 'm not . Who don 't knows right ? I 'm bad ma . always talk bad about others , always laugh at others when they fall down like fools . this is suppose to be my retribution ma hor ?


I don 't want to cry infront of anyone , I want to let others feel I 'm not weak for ONCE ! Why guys are liddat ? no ooo maybe it 's my fault laa . being a lousy girlfren hor ?


So childish for believing in love , whatever whatever whatever . . .


OR should I have fucking thoughts that ? ooo . he 's so stupid for dumping me , I 'm such a good girlfren , he must be a fool ? FUCK I won 't and couldn 't bring myself to think that way .


Yes now I understand how kelly feels oready . Being friends after a break-up is somehow hard for her because , you 're so close to your that love one , yet you can 't be with him . =((((( BLEAH


Why must guys always lie ? No I did not break up with you because I don 't like you just don 't have the feelings ? Maybe I know the difference ? PLEASE ?


I must be : uncaring , unfaithful , un-understandable , fucking ugly , act cute , unreasonable , unloving , FAT , disgusting SLUT , that he dump me . hor hor hor ? votes ? which one higher ?


From the top , I just fell into a dirty drain in one night 's time . and no one will be kind enough to bother to pull me up cause it 's too dirty inside . =(((


Why can 't I find guys that .... ooo whatever , It 's my fault anyway why blame those creature ? HAHA BLEAH , I can tell you I 'm very very very super not okay ? But can my unhappiness cure ? NO , and BIG FAT NO ! so I will put on fake smile everyday to cover the tears that is flowing inside my heart .


Let me be a clown BAHH !!! I will be like that till I will be entirely okay , I 'm not looking forward to school re-opening oready . I 'm such a LOUSY person laaaaa !!!!


Shoot me to death bahh !!!


Whatever .


=(((((((((((((((


Yay back for some blogging liao .


Today , whole day slack at home laa , morning woke up , my jie pull me out to buy breakfast lor . Came back use com , watch tv till now lor . So siann , slack whole day laa .


Watch stars award , yahh laa I 'm so sua gu right ? Now then watch , but that 's due to work lor , so no time . Just called zijie and asked about something lor , talk till cry laa . so stupid !!! Always luan luan assume me de . I think those tears I 've tried to stop it for very long liao . Felt much more better after talking to her lorr . I 'm such an IDIOT . BLEAH !


Tomorrow will be going out with her , YAY !!! So long didn 't go out with her liao , miss her laa . hees ! Thinking of perming hair leii , very AUNTY laa , also will cause dryness , but I want I want ! haha .


Okays lorr stop here le . bye bye people !


Miss me . HAHA

Thursday, 8 December 2005

Aiyaa , back for blogging lor .


Super not okay now lar , firstly it was yesterday night incident , actually oready okay liao . Now found out something again , if it wasnt sharol who told me I think I will never ever get to fucking know about it . oh well .


It was that someone was having this particular chalet which I was YAHHH !!! not invited to . so what so what ? I 'm so childish minded right ? But If it was quite a close friend of yours and most of your close friends when to the chalet and only you were not informed about it , how would you fucking feel about it .


I 'm not angry laa , do I have any fucking right to be angry ? I 'm just sad or rather disappointed la . And he claim it was because HE came so never ask me go laa . But at least , okay I mean at least ask right ? Okay laa . I 'm fucking childish laa . But That 's what I mind , because I treat him as my friend .


Fuck me , I MIND , I MIND laaa !!!!!!!! fuck , nothing I can do , nothing I can ask out of it . DAMN IT LAAA . FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK .


WHY MUST ALL FUCKING BAD THINGS COME AT ONE GO ????!!!!!!!!!!


whatever la , you all will give a damn to me meh ?