School was normal .

Lessons were boring as usual . haha . Four periods of F&N , was not doing research and just surfing the internet haha .

After school went band with lynn and cheryl pang , haha . They are always my full-time-jokers in band larh . ((: That weilynn although always so lame , but still she always makes me laugh the most .

Cheryl too , don 't get too upset over it alrightes . ((: haha . Friends are always there for you . ((:

Cheryl accompanied me to whitesands to scan my eyes . ARHG , I need to wear spects larh . ))): In the past love to play with people 's spects so much , now I have so so so many chance of wearing spects already . )):

Hmm , have thought through it , maybe I should just accept what things are now . It 's just part of our life , which is always fill with ups and downs . Thus , all we can do is not to un-do things that are done , but just to live with it , and we will be through . ((:

Because that 's life .

The more we think , the more we care . The results will only turn out not the way we wanted it to be , don 't deny , cause I 'm right ah hur ? Hehs .

Tuesdays with morrie taught us that , don 't forget our past , don 't deny , don 't hide it . Just live with it .


People who are lately feeling sad , agitated , or what-so-ever . Cool down , think through , and you will be through . Alrightes , saying it is much more easier than getting it done , but still we have to TRY . (:

Tomorrow we 're having chinese prelim oral , so ? Wish my luck haha .

TATAs ~ people .

I deleted the blog entry I wrote yesterday night .

For I 'm hoping for a better relationship , or rather friendship .

I went to look back at TKD 's Msn photos . Which reminds me of always hanging out together , eat , sing , play . shop . And any other things which you all can think of .

Maybe it was due to all the attidue I gave , all the sturbornness . I don 't know why , but my heart really breaks . How I wish time could turn everything back ?

Even if we were okay , will we even be like last time ?

There are uncountable reasons for all these . I guess I changed . I 'm starting to feel I 'm a useless extra freak . I thought that way will be a better way , but sad to say it wasn 't .

I feel ....

I 'm not needed , not treasurable . I 'm not someone that worth for all the good things .

I started to break my promise to myself . . . .

And the tears go down , a drop by a drop .

Back from work today .

Today the crowd was lesser as usual so nice winnie let me off at eight , so went down to watsons for my facial wash , and guess what ? I took half and hour to chose the right one .

So in the end picked bio-essence . ah hur , I hope it will be good , it better be good . haha .

I don 't like today work day larh . Due to some reasons . BAHH .

When I was queueing for bus 3 sheena and shermine from campus superstar was right infront of me , they were like keep singing , and talking about people in CCS . I wanted so much to yell at them , yarh larh , you all took part in CSS I know . LOL .

And I overheard them saying yuyang is one of the good guys in CSS . LOL .

Okay larh , shall stop here le . TATAs ~

Life has been boring these few days .

Went out with sis today to Bugis . She wanted to buy her hello kitty digital cam at Bugis Village so went there , and it was actually out of stock , the last piece was left as the display set .

I asked her not to buy larh , and buy another one , plus somemore the price had raised from 168 to 228 , siao right , with only a freaking 3.2 megal pixels , No way to buy a digital cam for a 228 only because it is in hello kitty . LOL .

So I told her to buy the other one which also have the same functions only without the hello kitty and just wrap it with hello kitty . You know those kind of shop that can help you to wrap up with handphones and stuff . yah , those kind .

So she was like so amazed by my idea larh . HAHA .

But in the end she bought the one with 5 megal pixels for 228 , actually it was 250 but the guy was so nice to give her a big discount . ((:

I even helped the lady with the nets machine , how funny she herself don 't even know how to use the machine . LOL , and just nice the machine is the same as the one I 'm using in face shop . ((:

Headed down to bugis and find jasline , she was modelling for missha . Ahh hur , that pretty lady . haha . Then headed to auntie house to return those VCDs and ate dinner .

How wonderful to have home-cook food ? LOL . I don 't have it everyday , so understand me for my excited-ness to have it . ((:

Alrightes shall stop here now .

TATAs ~ See you people .

Just back from Kelly 's B'day BBQ . ahhh . I 've got nothing to comment about it , was quite disappointed though . Me and Jas were kind of in the own world of ours . :x

Alrightes , School as normal , have been quite attentive during lessons haha . Anyway have band blah and blah . After that , went home bathed and changed .

Super tired , hope kelly 's leg will be okay soon .

SUCK LARH . BAHH ~

Sorry people for the lacking of updates . haha .

Have not really been in the mood of updating these days ah . yah . So anyway , school was normal today .

I felt that things are changing around me , people and ya just practically people , not all but most ya . That makes me felt down . ah hur . I just hope things will be the same as it is last time . But well , as you and me know , it will never . duh .

Have remedials today , and went to NUS with weilynn and sharol . It 's at clementie okay , so so so far larh , went to catch angela zhang shao han with them . Haha , no it was actually them accompanying me . Haha , they are having chem test tomorrow but still go with me . ((: so glad ya .

Shao han is pretty larh , very ok . Haha . And zijie NO you don 't like her larh . LOL . Sweet girl face . Was pissed off by one of the cruise , LOVE to follow the rules so so so much for what , as if you get money out of that . LOL .

But one of the cruise was SHUAI !! LOL . NUS got loads of shuai ge . LOL . hehs hehs .

Took bus to bugis with them , and I was sleeping so deeply until clifford called and asked about tomorrow 's time-table . ARHG . haha . So was woken up so gossip with sharol and lynn and took some photos . Me and my good photographic skills . HAHA .

Then took train home .

Okay ~ that 's all BAHH ~

Hope tomorrow will be a better day . Because there 's already a big big gap in between US .

TATAs ~

I missed blogging . ahha .

Have been lazy with the updates these days . But anyway , yesterday night went to cousin 's house for steamboat ! It 's actually a celebration for uncle and yeal boy birthday haha .

The steamboat was fun fun and more fun . haha . we fried the prawns , spread it with sambal chilli . ahhh . It 's nice ok , don 't doubt my cooking skills hur . LOL . The birthday cake was DURIAN one , so it 's nice . haha .

Found out something yesterday , so was actually quite moody to blog larh , but actually you all have no wrongs , anyway that 's your choice of asking ma , so it 's okay , I have got nothing to say .

Okay , today was actually supposed to go for work , but I was not feeling well , so well did not feel like going so msged winnie to cancelled my work . ahhh . Slack at home the whole day .

Catching up on my VCDs of " da chan jing " haha , no no , should I correct myself that the show is not about korea history , it 's about the girl that wants to excel in cooking , blah and blah , it 's a long story so you see , I can 't be coming back and advertised on this show . haa .

I 've finally get motivated to pack my room , I was so so so happy , now my room is finally neat and tidy . I 'm so proud of myself can . LOL . nonsense .

Sigh , today marks the last day of my march holidays , how sad , I don 't favour going back to school okay . It 's just shows that mid-year exams are drawing near again . and N 'level is always so fast .

I 'm afraid I can 't make it . This is not the year for me at all .

Am still pondering whether should I do F&N not . haha . :X

Regret asking you last night . I should not have asked at all . BAHH ~

TATAs ~ Hope tomorrow will be a better day . Holidays will be missed by ME .

Guess what ? I have got addicited to " da chang jing " yes , that 10 o'clock show on channel U . The show that only your mums , grandma and grandpa would favour . haha .

Nono , I got addicted because I practically have nothing better to do these few days . ARHG . Damnit , and there 's no goodys-headed to entertain me . ahh . My mom have got the VCDs so I watched it almost day and night .

I watched till I can 't properly tell when is day and when is night . haha . One VCD can already kill loads of time okay . I think it will last like 2 to 3 hours , I 'm not being exgerrating here , but it 's freakingly true .

Besides that , have also been trying out manicure these days , with my sis . I got so bored last night that , I do her nails for her . machiam professional manicurist . ahaha .

But all my skills fail larh , I 'm very lousy at it .

I 'm very very bored , stucked at home . ARHG . whatever .

TATAs ~

It was just another boring day at home . Haha .

My day starts off with ordering mac delivery breakfast with my sis . She went out and zijie came my house , haha . Do her blog , slack around , while she watched the VCDs , I 'm so bored to the extend that , I dug out my make-ups and mess with it .

Like I 'm mad larh . haha .

Went out with zijie to eat our lunch cum dinner . Accompanied her to take her bus , and she insisted a Double-deck . ARGH . haha . So sat at the bus-stop with her . Five mins passed , ten mins passed , and very long very long , and we talked alot . haha .

I love it . ((:

Ahhh , I just regreted larh , zijie you should know . haha . whatever . and finally her bus arrived , so I just walked home . ((:

I miss miss miss her larh . ((: My bestie . ((:


Fillin ' Your Everyday With Lovves .
SHERVONNE . ((:

TATAs ~

Still playing with my bubble gum . haha .

Satyed at home , and almost sleep the whole day , till kelly came to find me . She 's back from the make-up class , so yea I was treated as her guinea pig . LOL .

She used my eyes to make the effect of smoky effect . and we act as though like what taking photo , photos and more and more photos . Yayy .

It 's very very hot today okay . ARGH .

Shall stop here .


TATA ~

Geography trip to Malaysia was FUN . ((:

Assemble in school in the morning , took attendence and off we headed to Malaysia !

Was sitting with clifford for the whole day . Due to zijie larh , no due to SOME PEG . hahaha . Never-mind , sitting with him was fun too . LOL .

First stop , we went to look at the pineapple farm ? yayy , and we got the chance to taste sweet pineapple . ((: and went to look at rubber trees . So suck there , many irritating flies . aww .

Second stop was , what ? I don 't know LOL .

Anyway , just skipped those larh .LOL . we went for lunch at restuarant , okay , at least they did not bluff us and bring us to some wu lu places this time . Haha . And after lunch , off we went for "shopping" .

"Shopping" as in just looking at FOOD . Bought quite a number of things for my family . LOL . I 'm guai okay . LOL .

I still don 't get it why Malaysia Government switched on the lamp lights during day-time , when the sun is so so so BRIGHT .

Ahhh , don 't feel like blogging already . (((:

TATAs ~

Oh ya , it 's white valentine today , so happy white day . LOL .

Yayy , Back from work , from all the tired-ness . Haha .

I was being told to go to Bugis for work today , as vikiic was sick . So worked at 12.30 . Was so f*ck up , when I told about that , no mood to even work , is like thousand of eyes is watching at you . ARGH .

Worked with Fizah . haha . I missed last time . That time , when me , crystal , jasline , kelly and fizah were together , MY GIRLS . ARGH . Yarh things have changed so much .

Today was a bad day , I woke up and found that I was having period cramps , I can 't even stand properly for a min in the shop , I have to walked around or take the chance to sit down , but PEOPLE you know why I can 't la ?

Lynn came and find me for the lyrics , so sorry for not entertaining you , Iwas busy serving . )):

But Fizah helped me with my brows , haha . Today suck larh , with all my broken english . I cannot even speak a complete sentence , I just left the sentence freakingly in the air . DAMN .

Or I will go , urm , this one can can can do do do . OHHHH MY . Felt like digging a hole and go in and hide myself .

But MISSHA GUY is working . HAHAHA . I 'm so god damn happy . HAHA . And he smiled smiled smiled at me okay . HAHA . He got a bike , ahhaa .

Aiyoh , freaking PIG LEGGED don 't say people when you ain 't that goodie okay , you suck cause you have PIG LEGS haha . and you look fulgy without make-up , Oops I mean you 're even worst without make-up , so with or without , both UGLY . Don 't act slut okay , and flirt like nobody business , your ass is big or boobs is small .

AWWW , what a nice figure . HUR ?

HAHA .

Ok larh , shall stop here . haha . (((:

I LOVE LOVE LOVE , YOU . (((((:

What a saturday . haha . I 'm now staying at home and rotting .

Went to school this morning for band practises . haha . Nothing much to update , cause really there 's nothing to update haha . just went to have lunch with cheryl pang and walked around the pathetic whitesands .

haha .

and went home . Am excited about tueday Geog trip aren 't you all ? haha .

Pretty Pretty boy of mine , just tell me you love me too ~ haha .

How lame . I 've got nothing to do .

TATAS ~

Yayy , went out with jasline and kelly this afternoon for the hair-doing section haha , and I pon school . ((:

Met them at inter-change first , and sat bus 89 and headed off to seng kang . From 2 plus we reached there we stayed there for hours till , 6plus ? I suppose . Then cabbed down to Tampinese Mall for dinner .

Act KFC . ahhh . So fattening . Then headed to century square bla and blah , I feel so pink today , I bought alot of pink stuff . haha .

I hate my hair can , so flat now . and that aunty keep saying it 's a pity to reborn it back . BAHH . I don 't care haha .

Jasline got her frindge cut till so straight but it 's not ugly ok , haha . Gone mad with kelly just now at TM , we go crazy and shout . LOL . You need a ROOM ? haha , that poster make us laugh so so siao-ly . haha , don 't ask me where I find the word siao-ly , I formed it , OK .

Haha .

Went home with dear kelly , haha , dear kelly sounded so rythm hor ? haha .

Let me post so pictures . . .

The combination of SKJ . Yayy .

All rightes , shall stop here .

TATAs ~ ((:

A HUNDRED , THOUSANDS AND MILLIONS OF THANKSSSS TO PEOPLE WHO TAG !

Laykoon , Yeeni , qiuyi , mingkai , jasline , jasmine , ziying , cheryl pang , xiaomei

I LOVE ALL OF YOU !! . (((:

Ah hurh , yesterday post , I sounded rather angry or sad hur ? Forget it , I 'm trying to . And I think I have been too too too over-sensitive these few days .

Crying has been a daily routine to me now , It 's like I have to CRY today . I have to , I have to . ahh . What 's wrong with me ? Laykoon you know what ? I miss those days that we joked , chat , laugh , mess around and what you have . I really miss it .

I somehow no longer feel I belongs to this class anymore , I wonder anyone knows my visibilty . My sadness has become inexplicable . ahhhh . I get cheered up a little whn I went home with clifford . ((: ya , thanks .

Feels like skipping school , but I have not pass up all my files yet . Going school is so meaningless now , its all about , listening to the teacher , doing my work , going through testpapers , toilet , eat , fart , and go home . Even zijie says I 'm very very quiet today .

I 'm looking forward to after school tomorrow , yes I am , but NO not school . Shall I pon ?

Did I scare any of you by becoming this way ? I think I getting zi-bi-zhen already . When I see those hi-bye friends , I don 't know why , under what situation I will always try to force a smile even I 'm not okay .

Lessons have be very boring these few days , but mrs yong mood is very very good these few days , I love it , her jokes , her facial expression . ((: Today there 's no remedial , mdm erine completed her things in class so tadaa we 're free from all those intolerant staying back . WEEE ~

That 's perhaps the most happiest thing that I 've gone through this all day .

No No , there 's one more . hmm hmm . This morning I was in the train , and when it reaches tampines as usual thousands of people will rush in . This particular lady , for I don 't know whatever reason rushed in and gave me those very scarying looks , and with the BIG train , she ought to stand in front of where I sat .

How weird ?

Then this bangala came in and he was actually standing at the other side came over and delibrately stand beside that lady , that lady must be FRIGHTEN larh , that 's what I sensed , so the lady started to move a little , not to let the bangala get too close to her . and that FREAK bangala go even closer .

I looked up and freakingly stared and GLARED at him , and he keep looking , and I "gin" him . And he disgustingly made a silent move , and move to the next cabin . DAMN him .

Haha . I 'm contented and continued studying my Physics . ((:

Speaking of physics . ahh . I think I 'm going to flunk it too . So my combine science could not make it . I think I only studied for Geog , F&N and chinese for the whole of common test . whatever .

I miss those days . Let 's befriend , and be mad AGAIN .

Shall stop here . TATAs ~

I 'm really fine with people disliking me , yes I do feel sad , but I decided to heed zijie 's advice . Since they don 't liek what can you do ? Why must you be sad and cry over them , worth it ?

No no and no . How I wished I didn 't know it was you . You threw the piece of fucking paper ball and aim directly on me you think I don 't know ? I just wouldn 't want to say , so what if I said ? You won 't feel a least bit of guilty . People will only say , aiyoh why care so much he 's just playing mah .

I have my limits , and I have been hard on it these few days , what more tricks do you want to try ? You did not talk to me in class , I 'm already fine with that , but you do not , now DO NOT need to do that . And people behind are just giggling and laughing their damn heads off .

I tell you . ok I know you don 't fucking read my blog but I still have to say . I 'm enough of your silly actions , people DON "T LIKE ME , DON 'T HAVE TO ACT . I 'm indeed a very very sensitive person , once you do something , I can already sense that you dislike me .

I know I 'm disgusting , irritating , annoying . You can just fuck me off . You can just don 't talk to me , cause I won 't mind ok .

I 'm already used to being this way . this way . The way that nobody care at all . So don 't need it to be FAKE at all . I know you all HATE me hell lot . I know you all were pointing behind my backs , but do you know how it feels when someone you regard as a friend do this to you ? For others you would 't care but for your OWN friends I think you all will feel terribly insulted and sad .

I have got nothing to say about all of your actions . Because I doesn 't care ANYMORE . Please don 't let me cry again . PLEASE , just treat me as I 'm begging you all .

Today during chinese , out of sudden I really cannot ta-han anymore , that I broke into tears and hundred of taps are opened for my tears to flow out . But does someone even care , a tiny bit to offer an tissue ? a console ? Only clifford offer me tissue , jasmine and zijie came .

I would thanked you all a hundred times , because I 'm already the left-by-the-shleves . I would appreciate those who show your concern , because at the least bit I know you all are sincere . THANKS .

Up till now , I finally get the meaning that family is much more important than any . I love my SIS , MY DAD , MY MUM . Because they 're the only ones that know me BEST . Sorry to zijie , I did not don 't want to tell you the reason why I cried today , just that my heart can 't stop crying , that 's the reason .

I 've been thinking so much so much , that I cried like nobody business today , but at least I know what to do now .

Thanks , thanks , thanks .

Long and boring lessons as usual . Get to know my mathematics results , I 'm just in need of 2 more marks then I can pass . ahhh . 18/40 BAHH . I expected at least a pass . My ass la .

After school headed home striaght . Eat , bathed and went to meet kelly at her void deck and went to her house haha . For the make-up sessions . haha . So fun . Nothing special just basically messing up with our make-ups .

And she just have the skill in drawing brows la . haha . Missed her loads , had also been a long long time I ever see her already . Ever since I quitted for full-timer . She is still always the naive , pretty lady .

haha . Those days that I disliked her just flashed back . haha . Those childish days larh . I could still remembered the first day she came for work , I just dislike her like crazy . Because she is those very very femine girly type . haha , she speaks English , not singlish . LOL . Messsing up with make-ups , pictures were wonderful haha . My nice girl . ((:

POA today was siao . I can 't balance the account , my mind went blank . how sad . Yesterday night my sis teach me till she screamed and yelled at me . HAHA . Making her felt so pekchek , and then I laughed somemore . haha .

Ok larh , Social studies tomorrow . Fill me with luck please . Kelly 's family is indeed interesting larh . her friend too . haha . Nice guy . ((:

TATA ~

Sundays is always that boring to everyone , which includes me . haha .

Morning woke up , but still decided to laze on my bed , so read my story book . haha . finally finished it . It 's damn thick okay . Even my sis is surprise at the rate I 'm reading the story-book . LOL . (((x

After which , went out to buy my breakfast sum lunch . ate and watched tv and slack all the way . haha . Then evening daddy came to fetch me , and then went to airport to fetch sis from work , and down to headed to chinatown for dinner with mummy too . haha .

I think today I laughed most larh . haha . Hope this continues till tomorrow , the day after tomorrow and so and so ~ haha .

Me and me sis talked and laughed all the way in the car from chinatown till home . ((: I LAUGHED . hahaha . siao .

And that will be continue on and on and on . I will find the SIAO me back . ((:

Shall stop here here . ((:

TATAS~

Sometimes I felt sad , hearing my friends says that I have changed . And they just told me that . and last time I will usually goes , aiya , I always change de ma , I 'm very bad actually . you all don 't know meh ?

But now I decided not to . There was once I accidentally press through this channel and they were showing some shows larh , quite meaningful , they said when your friends are willing to tell you that you 've changed , shows that they still care for you , and know that you 're not very bad , cause they trust that you will change for the better . I hope I can make it . ((:

Yesterday night , met up with jasline at whitesands MAC and also a guy which she got to know recently haha . Really have a good time with them , still remembering those days we used to have alot alot of gossip and jokes . we just simply CLICKED , haha . because we can simply talk about anything and everything under the sun . I really miss those days working at face shop . when I don 't have to worry about school stuffs school friends . ahhh .

I would say , yes working is much more stressful then schooling , but the friends there the colleagues there are simply just so nice . I 'm not saying my friends are not nice arhh . haha , so anyway yesterday we just have alot alot of jokes there . haha . jasline you rock can !

we can joke , hitting eachother not getting angry easily . and I love this , cause I thought only me and my sis could do it but no . haha . It 's just so nice having meeting someone that you 've not seen for long time . haha .

Actually have been quite stressful these few days , nobody knows only . But when I told jasline everything , the burden is lesser already . haha .

hmmm , should be going out to study with zijie hurh . yapps . so shall stop here .

TATA <3

Had my mathematics paper this morning , I would say it 's not very difficult , and I 'm hoping for a pass . haha . The simultaneous equation got me stucked larh . I forgotten how to work it out , totally . ARHG ! and 3 marks flew away . haha .

Today , I think was at least the best day of all in this week . ((: Because I told myself to cheer up . haha . During maths lesson , mrs cheng was quite fed up with SOME PEOPLE larh . She 's hopeless larh , not knowing her mistakes even after getting scolded . BAHH ~Still have the cheek to smile .

After school , went to canteen and accompanied zijie to have her lunch , while she went up to CO and I went to Bugis to meet mitchell to get her bag . Ate mos burger there first , then went off to Bugis V .

Zijie is coming my house now . haha . I also don 't know why , can 't heard her through the phone very well . Oh ya , on the way home at MRT station saw ms tia .

Hmm , alrightes finally is SATURDAY tomorrow , I 've been looking forward so so so much larh . Cause I can sleep longer . haha . ok shall stop here le hurh .

TATA . <3

School was not very okay today . Haha . whatever . Was moody whole day I guess . nobody cares . so why I care ? LOL .

I 'm trying hard to be happy already . But I will of course , CHEER UP . haha . SIAO . ok I am siao . Hmmm , that matter , day by day gone quieter but I 'm still unsure how is it . okay , I don 't know what am I talking .

I hope I did not say anything that hurts you . zijie , if you 're reading didn 't mean not to tell you why I cry but I felt no one is caring . that 's why I said that . I 'm so sorry . )):

Okay , so school was normal everything was normal , expect my mood . It was just on and off . Okay , so if I 'm not wrong mrs yong will be back tomorrow . that suck larh . she come back , sure nag at us for not completeing the worksheets . ahhh whatever .

My sis is back today ! ah hurh , loads of things to catch up ya . We talked after waking up of afternoons nap . haha . So nice , it 's just SO NICE . (((: Her amazing race just seem so hard . But sound fun . I also told her what happened these few days , and telling her is just so different , my burden just let off .

Thanks to her , and also tkd and also zijie . (((: AT least I 'm not un-noticeable . hah . ok larh . shall stop here alrightes . (((:

TATA .

Today , was just another moody day that had passed .

I felt , I just felt you 're are avoiding . =\ You all doesn 't want to talk . Correct me if I 'm wrong . Suddenly tears just flow down during lessons , and I just act as though I was sleeping and looked out of the window and wiped my tears .

I 'm really unsure of anything that I can do already . No one to turn to . and all I can do is to let my imagination go wild . ))): I don 't like the distance I feel in between us . All of us . Ain 't we used to be united ? Keep thinking back . and I miss my sis so so much . Tears just flow out . and I do not wish to let people seeing I 'm crying .

I don 't want my days to pass just like that . I can say I 'm sinful but nothing I can do to cover up . Sigh . Ignoring is the only word . I could get out off my head .

Get back my chinese paper with a score of 63/100 and F&N 26/50 . BAHH , I passed my F&N that 's very gladful larh . I did not expect to .

PEOPLE , teach me how to cheer up . PLEASE .

ok , shall leave .