Saturdays are still saturdays . Haha . Something just pissed me off so much this morning larh .

It 's all about Mac . My sis and I ordered breakfast from Mac delivery , and they claimed that our delivery time will take about 45mins , which is normally okay . But it arrived only after an hour or so . That one was still okay , because Mac called and apoligised actually . When he reached , he forgot one of the drinks and he still expect us to give him an exact amount to him .

It 's like so FUCKED up . I called and complain and demanded for another drink laaa . When that freaking delivery man reached he gave me that i-owe-him-money look . Please larh , don 't act so innocent okay . Give what fucking look . BAHH ~

One time is more than enough to spoil their own reputation ok .

Anyway lynn came in the afternoon and study as well as for vocal practise . I think we sit down for only like 15mins and we started slacking haha . That girl is so power laaa , she is sick and having a freaking high fever and she can still take it to come to my house .

I will not be able to take it ok . I still remembered the last time I was so sick laa , I even insisted my sis to take a cab and cab me to the polyclinic . And she was like HUH . LOL . Those people that lives near me will knows how near is the freaking polyclinic from my house laa . LOL .

Haha , I worship her ta-han-ness . LOL . I took care of her okay , I wet her body , made ice bag for her . and Hot honey okay . I 'm such a greeeaaatt friendd laaaa . hahahahahaha . Ok I shall stop it laaaa .

Night time , went to my aunt 's house and met them for dinner . Ahh , not bad . ((: Shall be going to Malaysia tomorrow . ((: I will soo soo miss HIM and friendys . ((:

Loooooooovvess . Hees . tatas for now .

ai ni hen xing fu ~ (((:

The freaking Mid-Year Examinations starts today . Had EL paper .

I think I did quite badly for the report wiriting , or whatever it is called . Bahh ~ After school went to consult ms tan for my coursework , and guess what rozita walked passed. GRRR . I felt so guilty larh . SORRY .

After consultation went lunch at paya lebar with zijie . It 's been a long long time we went lunch already . and it was great . I missed it . =X Got so very pissed off with the Cheung cheng sch boys larh . Walked past my sits and knocked my bag down , without even apologising neither did they pick up my bag for me . WHAT THE FUCK .

Act like what ? Top school and as if you 're so intelligent , make so much noise there . You all are just pollutants . Damn you all . LOL . PUUUIII ! Pukes .

Saw huixuan and rainer at pasir ris MRT station haha . so funny larh . (((:

Shall be stopping here . Where you want to go ?

tatas ~

Had my prelims oral today , Mr Tan was kind enough to tell me the problems I had . ((: But i felt I did quite badly for conversations and picture disscusion . AHHH .

Don 't know what 's wrong with me today . Had mood-swings now and then . I don 't know what 's on my mind . I don 't even know what 's wrong how do you expect me to say ? Sigh . Am I creating troubles to myself again ? Ahh . I 'm sorry to those who I have showed attidue . =X

Something happening happened larh . What the . That girl is just too much . Poor kahng . :(

I just somehow wonder when will a person get contented ? Will he/she feel contented when he/she get the things she desire ? No , I don 't think so . Human beings are one that will ask for more . When they get something they desired they will ask for more , things that are better . But that 's the way how a person improve themselves .

But I still think that , one have to feel contented . That 's the way , we can feel happy . ((: We should be glad of what we have instead of just asking more out of it . ((: Am I right ? But it is always easier said than being done . But We have to try to . By that way , all of us will be happy .

I hate myself when I put on a sad face . But sometimes is just a matter that I can 't control . ((: I will put the above on actions . (:

Tatas for now . All the best to people for your EL paper tomorrow . (:

Guess how right was Mrs Yong ? She was just anyhow giving examples like it always don 't start to rain until assembly is over . She was correct larh, so freaking true .

Just as the bell goes off, there goes it starts to pour . and I have to rush for my dental appointment . So out of all the bobian-ness , me and zijie have to run all the way to teh MRT station . And we were totally drenched . God damnit . Luckily , zijie accompanied me . Haha , thanks girl .

Reached there , and waited for a good 5 mintues or so . Everytime when I 'm late that dentist will give me all sorts of black faces and even scream at me . There was once , I were late , for I don 't know what reasons , I think I missed my bus or something . She screamed at me ok ! She goes , do you know if you were to come later than that , I might not be here . Just because she is knocking off , she screamed at me when I 'm late . BAHH~

And when she is late to entertain me she act like nothing . what the . Anyway this might be the last time I 'm wearing braces , if for the next appointment nothing goes wrong , I will be able to take it off . Am quite looking forward to it , but I will look so weird larh .

Ann from faceshop called and asked whether I 'm able to work tomorrow , but will be having oral so just too bad . I felt guilty larh , everytime they ask me and I always turned them down . ): But tomorrow is my prelims oral . so sorry .

I 'm very disappointed at someone larh , I already said numerous times , I only tell anyone my things ONLY when I trust them . and you have already make me mistrust you . Whatever .

Why don 't you stay back in school when I stayed back also ? Stupid laaa . ): Stay back for whatttttttt .

I realised I 'm real sensitive . I get upset over small things , I felt like as if something had pushed me down . Umm . That 's about all le ba . tatas for now , tomorrow shall be a better day . ((:

Just Some Photos at Sentosa , as promised . (:

Them , in the train . Us in the bus , Way to SENTOSA !

Waiting for the shuttle train . Snap snap ! While playing Rugby .
Albert leow and Zijie . (: They were trying hard to act cool . Aiya so I just anyhow take a photo for them larh . HAHA !
The Guys . What 's more ? Just the 2 of us . ((:
Calvin and I .
Jason and TKD .
They were just running about .
The perfect contrust of fat and slim . and I 'm FAT . ): Ngoh and calvin sim .
Our un-cleared foot prints .
Yah , acting cool . AHAHAHA . xD
Albert , kena buried . HAHA .
Processing of the breast and the nipples . OH GOD . LOL .
His poor expression . AWWW .
THEM . (:
Again .
The view was nice hur ? They ain 't looking .

That 's about all . ((:

Today , stayed back with lynn and sharol pek .

Hundred thanks to them ! Sharol taught me Physics , I understand most . ((: and Lynn too , she teaught me maths . Still not very sure , reason being I was sleeping all the way through the gradient topic .

Was pissed off larh . I just don 't know why I feel that way also .

That 's all for today . tatas for now . Yesterday blogger was at fault , I posted and refresh for numberous of time , but it just did not came out , so I gave up . But well , the post is still with me . ((:




Soo . . .


Monday.
It 's another rainy day AGAIN .

It always doesn 't starts to rain only when I start to leave school . It 's like what the fuck . It was drizzling at first, so I thought it was ok larh . When I alighted at Pasir ris , firstly there was this anutie whom walked super slowly , ASSUMING herself , that she would fall at a place that is sheltered .

And everyone behind me was pushing away , and there was this secondary school girl ran past and knocked into her . She just goes " AIYOHH YOHH " and I remembered her YOHHH goes on for a long time . I think I timed it , it was like for 5mins . ahaha . Ok I admit I 'm too exgerrating here . But she is too much of a irritants .

And worst still she looked at me , as though I were the one that had knocked onto her , I wanted to apologise , but thinking it wasn 't me at all , but her look was scaring , like making me feel so guilty . SIAO ! Then I just diao her and walked off . DAMN .

When I alighted from the bus , I ran all the way across the road , and stopped when this malay auntie with an umbrella was . She walked so freaking slowly , as if she owns the road , don 't ask me to walk another way , because her freaking CUTE kids were by her side , so I shouted EXCUSE ME , quite loudly . and when she turns around , the rain on her umbrella just drained down my face ! FUCK ! Triple fucks . okay .

She quickly pulled her kids aside and let me stormed off . As though I will eat her kids up . BAHH ~

Anyway , stayed back with weilynn today for her to consult Mrs Cheng . While she was , I slept all the way . haha . And Mrs cheng claims that I become more hardworking than I was last time . haha .

Social studies second period was relifed by MR WEE ! haha . Was having SS re-make test also . So FUN larh , I like MR WEE , he 's crappy , he 's the best larh , willing to listen to all my craps and lobster . haha .

If only I take history larh . (((:

That 's about all le ba , tatas for now . ((:

I was surprised at how you reacted today , freakingly cold . wth .

Shall have a breif update on what 's school like .

It 's drawing near to vesek day , so my school , as a Buddhist school , held this event about the folding of lotus-es . Mrs Yong actually sent me and zijie to learnt it . We were like what the hell . But after so much it was real fun hur ? haha .

Classes were competing over the 100bucks . BAHH~

Chinese lessons , we were asked to write questions , asking our friends . Nothing have come across my mind , so I just leave it out . It 's not that I am not interested about my classmates . It 's not that I don 't care . But somehow I felt even if your name wasn 't there , that person might know the questions are from you .

Have been slacking hell loads these days , and MYE is drawing near . What the . . .

That 's about all . Tatas for now . School shall be GOOD tomorrow . (:

TRIP TO SENTOSA ~

Yetserday had hell load of fun . haha . Met calvin , albert , wensheng , jason and zijie at tanah merah . Headed off to changi airport for the digital camera from my sis . And ate lunch there as well . (: While we waited for TKD to come . So SORRY for telling lies . We din mean it ya ?

Train all the way down to outram park and met Jing hao and Ka hng . Aiyoh seeing Ka hng makes me think back of Friday incident larh . Keep laughing . Haha . We trained down to Harbour Front .

Reached there at around evening time , and god damn there 's no more sun , and there goes my sun-tanning . GONE . Played volleyball , and the freaking ball is so painful larh , so instead we played Rugby . lala . That was so fun haha . Guys are so so rough larh . They smashed eachother like nobody business .

Took photos and photos , it shall be upload when my sis return home with the camera ya ? ((:

So wanted to jump into the water when I see those guys playing larh , so borrowed ka hng clothes and jump in haha . That was FUN FUN FUN larh . we even buried albert leow in the sand . They do it , while I pictured it . haha .

Hundred thanks for the dry t-shirt Jason . (: Will return you ASAP . If not I would be walking all the way home with wet clothes . haha .

That 's about all larh .

Happy Birthday to TKD and MINGKAI !!!
Best Wishes ah ! (((:

I was touched by your brave-ness . You should know . ((:
Time is all I need . (((:

Sorry TKD , have to rushed coursework so can 't go with u all . Have to enjoy larh . ((:

It seems like I don 't really enjoy blogging now . I don 't even look forward to it larh .

Anyway , Thursday , went for ladies night at K BOX with dear jasline . Maybe I would say the topic we touched on , will never be more than school 's life . Right ? Yahh , last time we used to work together and gossiped . And I suppose both of us enjoy alot . Yahh . and now our topic will just put an end to anything not more than school life .

Aww . But I am always the one that have confidence that our friendship will always last . She used to say we would not be contacting eachother after we stopped working , but don 't you guys find it amazing ? We don 't even work , neither do we study together , we still get to contact eachother , actually I 'm already contented with this . What more can I say ?

So thursday k box-ing was actually a celebration for Jas 's belated birthday . We got so high , we sang most of the songs together larh . haha , was screaming through the mike . which is FUN . haha . And guess what ? My deary camera , once reached there got low batt , and the batt turned flat . God damn it ok . haha .

Friday was just another friday , the only thing was that there 's no band . haha . Waited for zijie 's leadership investiture to end . While we headed back to class listened to songs , and jump around . LOL .

There is something so funny happened larh . Zhi qiang and zhun xun was playing soccer at teh corridors outside our classroom and "something" happened larh , Then ka hng was like out of sudden came out with a broom and dustpan , makes me laugh my ass off larh . He really cheer my day up . LOL . And he goes like don 't need report , don 't need report . hahaha .

But it seems like I was the only laughing that way . HAHA . Like some mad woman . So went to the toilet with laykoon , cheryl and zijie and guess what larh ? We found a toad at the basin . HAHA . I used some water to spray it , but sad to found it DEAD . NOT FUN . haha .

That 's about some happening things yesterday larh . Will be going to sentosa with those guys larh . Siann , and my throat like so hurting larh . BAHH ~

Life has been OK for me . I just hope nothing will be bothering me anymore .
I found that when you so wanted to please a person so much , the results you tend to get will never be a good one . Sigh . I 'm already not going to care .

As said , what for care about those that dislike you ? Won 't it be rather better by spending more attention on your LOVELY CARING friends around you ? They are much more worth it , ain 't I right ? Haha . They are just whores . BAHH ~

Sis got into Physco as her elective haha ! She actually chose music as her first choice but got into her second choice . haha . Like so interesting , studying about physco larh . haha .

That 's about all . TATAs ~

Drowning in a pool of confusions . ):

Seeing you PLAYING in class is such a torture okay . Well . >.<

BLAAAAAHHH . I won 't admit I am jealous , I won 't admit I am upset . haha . BAHHHH .

Lessons were as usual . Mrs cheng did not attend our class , for I do not know what reason , so did our examination paper in class . I don 't even know how to do larh , I practically skipped every questions . I was so annoyed by it larh .

I ran out of classroom and jump . LOL . I was practically too upset or or or I don 't know another word for it , agitated ? And found zijie and jasmine outside too . haha . Shouted out everything to zijie . haha . So funny larh . Let 's get to eat vingear TOGETHER . haha . BAHHH ~

Recess time , was like too angry to eat to drink or anything larh . So stupid haha . Still a kid larh . haha .

After school went to canteen to look for lynn , she was having that whatever competition for wiriting chinese words , how lame . Which jiaying keep claiming can get easy cash . HAHAHA . Was laughing my ass off larh . I helped lynn to wrote some , causing her to lose more marks . haha .

Afterwhich , went to meet clifford and guys HOME . haha . Lynn came for the vocals practise . So lame but so nice also . haha . We were like jumping when she get the right beat .

Hmmm , that 's about all . TATAs ~

Hahahahahahahahahahahahahaaaaaaahhaaaaaaa . Bleahhhhh ~

Mr irrtating Lizard woke me up from my evening nap just now . BAHH ~

Haha . Din even get to sleep a hour , and he was down there waking me up . So annoying larh .

Today school was normal . Was quite excited though . Haha . Lame larh . Had maths remedial , afterwhich meet up with lynn .

She went to find mrs cheng for some maths questions , while I went also . Just nice the rain stopped , so went home with lynn cheryl and guys . Nothing much . It 's just a boring MONDAY .

MONDAYS are not nice . But someone said something that makes me go so siao . Haha .

Okays larh , have to chiong for F&N now . (((: See you .

I admit I update for the sake of updating haha . Should I just let the feelings go dead ? Or just carry on ?

Cheryl & Qiuyi . Have to cheer up ya ? I 'm always there for YOU ! haha . ((((:

I got so upset when I see him all alone by himself .

I yearn for something to push me and get to know him , but all I can do is to see him alone , by himself .

I hope he was not left out . (((:

I ... ... ... adore you . =X

I 'm BACK !!!

Haha . Loads of things to update , too much that I don 't know where to start from .

Montage 2006 ended last night , with havorc . Haha . We were like so high on stage can . We started on practiscing very long time ago , going for rehearsals after rehearsals . In school as well as VCH too . Being so tired , but I guess to everyone performing out there , our hard work is paid off . RIGHT ? haha .

Yesterday morning cab down to the hairsalon with cheryl , lay puay and lynn . ((: Get our hair styled . and headed to school and get prepared to VCH . Everyone was so so excited . haha . Our feelings then were never ever able to express it out .

Long day for us , with the help of my best partner wendie , we manage to do our best . ((:She will always be my best partner . That might be the last day for us to do our best .

It 's quite sad to say that only till the last day I started to really do my job . I really wake up when ex-band memebers like jieyuan and darren talked to us after the rehearsal on monday . I 'm truthfully sorry . )): I 'm not a good welfare . Not a committed band member also . If only there was a chance again , if only time could turn back , I will be a better one . hor weilynn ? haha . That girl also very guilty for not doing her job better .

I really can 't bear to leave those who are graduating . Like only yesterday I got to know qiping . It was like so dumb larh , so long in band . I did not even bother to know other people . I hope I 'd appear more friendly . )):

But yesterday was really high , everone jump up after the mcee called out Mr foo 's name . That was a big hoohaa . HAHA . Siahmong jumped non stop until jocelyn pulled him back . haha ! Where to get back such fun fun band members ? ONLY here in MJR ok . haha .

Honestly , I don 't enjoy going to band , but not the way now .

Although we might not sound the best , but at least to me you all are the BEST . ((: ALWAYS .

I love everyone of you . Montage '06 will always be on my mind . (((:

Ok , I 'm super PISSED OFF by what she wrote .

Accept part of you all ? You all PS me ?


It was me and her that was very good in the first place , and because of some matter we quarrelled and you were the one that starts to be close with her , I would not say you only , so both of you were very close . Do you know how excatly how I felt at that bloody point of time ? Quarrelled with her , and still there 's someone with her .

Ok , you said you wanted to accept me as part of you guys . and I 'm not even trying to . SORRY I have to say I only want to be close with HER . It is not that I don 't like you all , BUT I just go along well with you all , it is not just a matter of trying . It 's just like to make a relationship work , it 's not just all about whether you were trying anot , IT 'S ALL A MATTER OF FEEL .

Ok , that 's that . What more can I say , you are already so close with her , what more can I say ?

And secondly , when did I ever say that you all PS me ? WHEN ? I only did not want to go with you all . That 's all . Because I don 't feel comfortable . When was it that I never try to be your friends . I tried very very hard , but I just can 't bring myself to do so . It 's pretty weird . WHY I show you all attidue . It was because I can 't bring myself to be with you all .

HAVE YOU EVER SPARE A THOUGHT FOR ME ?

I 've been trying very hard not to mind YOU with her so close . But you know what ? I can 't . Ok people call me childish call me a freak . No one will ever understand why .

How am I going to accept the change like that ? The four years of friendship with her . all along it was only me and her . I don 't want to lose her . Because I really do treasure this friendship alot . I know you really want me to go with them be good friends . and we go la la . BUT if it was ever that easy I won 't be here typing all these out .

Whenever I 'm with you all I felt like I 'm just a follower , nothing but just following you all .

Don 't ask why can 't I just be with them . The feeling was never right means NEVER .

GUYS , I know you all are understanding them alot and never it was me . I 'm NOT EVER NEEDED OK .

Sometimes I just wonder whether am I important . I 'm also very stress out about this thing ok . It was never only you . I 'm very very very tired .

Leave me alone .........................................................................................................................

I don 't want this post to sound offending to you all . I only want you all to understand me . (:

That day , we were having international Friendship Day presentation .

And shuhui and company brought along their lovely digital cams , so snap snap PHOTOS !

The korean Dress , but in PAPER . haha .

Yayy ~ kisses . HAHA . My best bud . (((:

My computer is finally back , function normally . haha . So people , still do come and visit my blog yea ? haha .

Things were quite normal these days , and I really hope xmei , yeeni , tkd and company will be alright soon ! Sorry for being a kaypo to interfere but really wish them well , for I 'm a passer-by who excatly knows how it feels to have conflicts among friends . and the feeling is definetly not ONE that anyone would love to have . ah hur . Especially when it 's your close close buddies . ((:

But for no matter what reason , I 'm sure both party still cares alot for eachother , if not why they even bother to feel sad hur ? So , you all shall still stay GOOD BUDDIES . (((:

Had remedial and went home with zijie and company . I quite enjoy their company , but sometimes I still felt as if I 'm still not in there . It 's like maybe I can 't really click well ? It 's like I 'm a sling bag while they are handbags , I 'm slippers they are high heels . And the list still goes on .

BAHH ~ Yeeni was right , the older we are the more senstive we become , if it was that way I wish I will not grow up . =X The more I feel UN-LOVE . :((

Why would things never be the way we wanted it to be ?

Okay , I 've got loads of tests coming up . I heard he is in love , so you can imagine how sad am I now . ))))))))))))):

TATAs ~

PEOPLE !!!

so sorry for the lacking and lacking of updates . My com is SPOILT larh larh .

And I 'm using my school 's computer . )): how sad . Well , too many for me to update , just so so much larh .

Everything has almost been right . It 's quite OKAY already . But to say the truth , still with something , with someone around things will never be the same . :X But am already quite contented that at least we talked and joked more . ((:

I hope I won 't get fed up one day , and BOMB at you . But during some lessons time , I really do get pissed off larh . whatever . I 'm already getting freaking tired of all these , though things will never get to be the same as LAST TIME , I hope we 'd stay friends still .

And and and . To that tan weilynn . haha , I have to thanked you alot larh , for accompany me all these days , and I practically enjoy your company , your lame-ness , your crap-ness , lobster-ness . LOL . I know you don 't read my blog larh , but still thanks okay ! haha . (((: iLOVEyou .

Hmmm , so have been taking up the F&N period to blog haha . Rozita did not turn up larh , so four F&N periods !!! lalalal .

Montage , my school concert is coming up soon , if I 'm not wrong about the date it should be 13 or 14 of this month , so come come BUY TICKETS FROM ME ME ME ! haha .

Friends was QUITE ALRIGHT now , thus , school was OKAY .

Family was fine too . ((((:

Relationship suck big time now . HAHA . Because I don 't have a partner la la la . But I 'm missing both . HAHA .

Okay , I 'm done with this entry . ((:

Jasline , I MISS YOU LARH .

Haha , come call and meet up OK . haha . (((:

TATAs ~

I hope you 're not with us . =X Yes , I 'm selfish but YOU will never ever understand the feeling I 'm having right now . Because you 're never this way before , hands off . I 'm feeling shit .